I love my husband on sunny days
My life is a roller coaster of emotions
But today I’m happy and that’s all that matters
So grateful 🥰
My life is a roller coaster of emotions
But today I’m happy and that’s all that matters
So grateful 🥰
میشه پرنده باشی، اما رها نباشی…
میشه دلت بگیره! اسیر غصه ها شی…
حالا كه آسمونم دنیای تازه ای نیست
اون وقت یه جا بشینی محو گذشته ها شی
ترسیده باشی از كوچ، اوجُ ندیده باشی
واسه یه مشتی دونه، اهلی آدما شی
تو سایه ها بمونی، درگیر سایه ها شی
مفهوم زندگی رو، از یاد برده باشی
دلت بخواد دوباره، از ته دل بخونی
از ترس ریزش اشك، غمگین و بی صدا شی
Je ne sais pas pourqoui mais je suis tres contente!
Not sure why exactly but I have felt very happy in the past week…
It has probably something to do with my husband… he has been pretty happy and not complaining… I don’t tbink we got into any major arguments last week. He has been extra nice with me in the past 48 hours! Not sure what’s going on but it’s a funny feeling… I haven’t felt this happy in a while… it’s like a cloud has lifted my chest..
It’s a nice feeling
زمستون…●♪♫
تنِ عریونِ باغچه؛ چون بیابون…●♪♫
درختا… با پاهای برهنه، زیرِ بارون…●♪♫
نمی دونی؛ تو که عاشق نبودی●♪♫
چه سخته مرگِ گل؛ برای گلدون●♪♫
گل وُ گلدون؛ چه شبها، نشستن بی بهانه●♪♫
واسه هم قصه گفتن؛ عاشقانه●♪♫
چه تلخه… چه تلخه…●♪♫
باید تنها بمونه؛ قلبِ گلدون…●♪♫
مثِ من؛ که بی تو نشستم، زیرِ بارون…●♪♫
زمستون… برای تو قشنگه، پشتِ شیشه●♪♫
Welcome to the saddest month of the year
Last year, once I found our about the 👶🏻 I went down the memory lane and cherished the days they were created, including those days that I still didn’t know…
These are the days that I am actively trying to stay positive with heavy pain in my heart that’s constantly being ignored until it’s not
This is all part of grieving. The memories will never be forgotten…
Given my current state, or “our” current state, I honestly don’t even know if I still want to… although I am taking steps towards making it happen and the thought of it happening gives me joy, it’s still something that I have doubts about, which makes this whole thing very confusing
All I know is that I can be very happy when distracted and very sad when I am not. Refer to the picture in the previous post if you want to see my “happy state”
I thought it may be good for me to write down the things that I wish he did differently then maybe I could find a solution
Nov 10: ey kaash yekam mehraboontar ba man va hameh barkhord mikard. Aslan fekr mikonam ageh mehraboontar bood hameh moshkelatemoon hal mishod. Vali ageh tavanaayisho nadashte basheh chi? Ghablana fekr mikardam ageh baa digaran mehraboon nist hadde aghal ba man hast vali digeh intor fekr nemikonam. Mitoonam begam keh 100% doosam dareh vali mehraboon nist