Hmm

There are some plans that you make for yourself that you know will happen without a shadow of a doubt ... Even if it's a long process... And even when others approval is involved... Sometimes you just know.... And this time I do... And I'm super excited... I guess it's easy to believe when it's not a matter of the heart :)

Blah

Not sure the reason exactly but I was stressed out and anxious for most of the day... It was all under control though... Still havnt won the battle of nor wantig to msg him... I think about it and then I stop the thought... It has to be simpler than this... He was not the right person for me because he was busy... But the problem was that I liked him... So much

I'm still SO freaking thankful to god

THANK YOU

Please help me get over this... I know I can

:(

Instead of sending him that message I will write it here ...  I want to tell him so much that I miss him... He was such a nice guy... Back to square 1

Other than that life is good and I'm so freaking thankful!!! Thank you god!!!! <3 p="">

Talk

Sometimes just talking about something clearscthe mind.... I'm a tiny little bit better... And that's what I call progress :)

Aashghaal

It's really funny... In a way it's really messed up


Ok I can be totally convinced that he was not right for me... Although I liked him a lot he was just way too busy...

But i cant get over the fact that he said bye and never msgdpo

Indifferent no more

Well.... I am ok... Just ok.... Less indifferent than i thought i would be

I cant stop thinking about it... 2.5 months was flushed down the toilet in less than a minute

I'll live

Jomleh haayeh badaz midnight

Adam ke sarash shooloogh mishavad, baa kaar va khaandvaadeh, hesse deltangi ra az dast midahad... Be khosoos agar dar rabete chizi pichideh bashad...  Shayad delash hichvaght baraye man tang nashavad... Va dele man baraayeh oo... Zood ast.... Nemidaanan

Mikhaam bi tafaavot baasham... Va hastam ... Va nistam

Tanha chizi ke motmaennan in hast ke hargez nemikhaaham  ghorbani baasham

Va in haaleh mane bi toast...

:D

Toast ... No not talking about bread

Well, I celebrated valentines day and broke up on the same night... How often does that happen? I bet not that often...

So how do I feel about it? I'd be lying if I say I have moved on... I still think about it... Yesterday I was still feeling bad... Today was a bit better thanks to my friends who helped me...

Right now... Afrer midnight, thoight kept rushing back... It may seem like I have soms unansweed qs ...

So what happened exactly? Cant put my finger on it

It's over...

And boom... It ended... Just like that

I had a weird feeling all week last week... There was something wrong.... I finally told him at around 6 if he wAnts to meet up... He did but at the end of the night he said that he feels our conversations are superficial and that he cant live without sex... So i said that I'm sorry that he feels thAt way... But that's just how it is... And that I like him but theres nothing I can do... So we ended it... It was that easy... I mean today I was ok... We'll see about the rest of the week

:(

Kalaafeam kalaaafeeeeee... Az in ke farda nemikham beram coq ke khanevadamo bebinam narahatam.... Cheghad man khaleyeh badi hastam!!! Bazi moghe ha az khodam miporsam chera hamash man bayad beram? Vali vagheyiatesh ins ke kalafegi too rabetam enghad asabamo beh ham rikhte ke hoseleye hichkaso nadaaram! Hala khoobe yeh hafte intori shodaaa bebin che gheshghereghi be pa kardam :) haghighatesh ine ke man daram se hafte dige miram mosaferat! Yani dar kol do ta weekende dige ya max se weekend mitoonam bebinamesh

Frustrated....again

And guess what else? I cried... Again

I hate not being in control! I dont know why I got sad... I would have told him if I knew for certain what was wrong... Am I just a crier? Am I just a baby? Am I just being too sensitive? Well, let me tell you what the problem is: not knowing when I will see him... For good reasons! If I ask for a specific time he wont be able to tell me because of the situation... So I lose.... If I don't ask him... Again: I lose! So I guess the most logical thing is to quit being a baby!

6 more days until I figure out if I'll have my valentine... For tonight... At 1:53 I'm just a bit sad and a bit frustrated... Time to go to bed!

Happy 2nd month anniversary

Just saying

I've got things under control... Or so I think :)

I want him to be happy....he will get through this

Talk about roller coaster

Umm so yea.... Today was an emotional day.... I was crying for 2 hours bcz i havnt seen him since last friday.... But then he called and now am ok