Va in MANAM...tako tanhaa... dar aastaaneyeh viraanegi..... empty....... is how I feel.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Nice poem.

تو یاد وحشی غربت عجیب می توفد
و اسمان دل من ز عشقها خالیست
سکوت می بارد ولی ز بانگ سکوت
نصیب این دل خسته غریو بد حالیست
به من نگاه مکن که از دو چشم غمینم دو رودغم جاریست
به من نگاه مکن که قطره قطره اشکم غریق در زاریست
وکوله بار مصیبت برای شانه من یگانه همسفرست
و در عبور مداوم ز رود ممتد مرگ
شکسته زورق دل همیشه در خطرست.
و دیر هنگامیست که کار من ز نگاه سخت بگزشته است
به من نگاه مکن

p.s. I currently can't relate to this poem much because I'm neither that sad or desperate. But I have been in the past that's why I thought I should post it here :)

Physical Health Vs. Emotional Stability

It's funny how people are always making sure that they don't get sick etc. but they almost not even half as much care about their emotions and emotional problems.

I would like to say a lot more about this but I don't feel like writing much.

But it's truely something that people should think about A LOT MORE than they do now.

May there be happiness and peace someday around the world :)

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Gone!

It's true

Some people think that it's hard to forget someone because of the time that you've spent together and the "memories" which can't be erased

memories can't be erased but they can become meaningless

regardless of how much you've cared about that person in the past...... when someone "drops from your eye" (az cheshet miofte) there's no way of bringing them back

TRUST ME......I've tried.....but the constant irritation and negative energy that you get from them is all you need to forget about whatever happened in the past ...... and say...... enough is enough!

grrrr i just feel bad for myself because my "best friend" fits into this category

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Looking at my.... life............. it's so empty........nothing exciting.......

I'm sad....... I can't think of anything that makes me happy......there's no one around me that can make me happy.......... hanging out around the people I know doesn't make me happy....... maybe the reason is because they are not happy........ or in my opinion they don't seem happy........ I don't know anyone around me that is the way I want them to me....... no one treats me how I want to be treated........

my so called "Friend" cancels her own plans....... I really like going to the airport and I was really looking forward to going to the airport with her today ....... because she'd told me a week ago that she'd go to the ariport with me on saturday....... so I was really happy and excited about this ( lol ..... how sad is my life?)...... anyways....... I call her yesterday to see when she want to go..... and then she tells me "oh i'm going with my parents........" ....... like nothing happened........

oh god ......... why does this life have to be like this? why do i have to have her as my friend? why does she make me mad SO MAD at least once or twice a week? how can I leave her? HOW? wouldn't people think that I am crazy if I stop talking to my ONLY friend? wouldn't I get depressed if I do that?

I'm having such a bad day........ I feel like I want to explode.......

I'm beginning to like this guy that I chat with......... I actually called him yesterday........ he's so wonderful.......and so not my type.......well maybe he is but he's too far from where I live....... I don't think I want to start anything with him......... because....... you know........ one shall never make the same mistake twice! .........

Friday, August 17, 2007

Happy moments Vs. Happy life

Is there a difference?
Yes

Do you know the difference?
Well, I do!

So you can have fun in the moment......fail your test ......then go out and party.......that's how you'd enjoy the "present" ........ but your future is made of what you do in these moments...... and adding up these happy "moments" doesn't neccesarily make a happy future!

So I get that........but do you?

I don't think so!

I need some excitement in my life..... to make a happy future....... something exciting..... and by exciting I don't mean going camping with people that I don't enjoy being aroud..... and doing something adventurous like getting lost in the middle of the jungle! that could be fun but at the end of the day I'd be still looking for something exciting.....

how I wish I could meet my perfect man....... I need to be built by someone..... and that someone needs to be someone that's already built..... then maybe even if we don't end up together I'll help build others that need to be built...... and only then will I be able to make a difference in this world!

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

:(

I'm kinda sad.... like I'm kind of........ u know....... I got my marks and it wasn't what I'd expected AT ALL...... like seriously........how would u feel if u worked so hard on something and got.....

I'll TRY AGAIN

I WON'T GIVE UP

GOD HELP ME THROUGH THIS

I WANT TO GET A GOOD MARK

GOD HELP ME DO WHAT'S NEEDED TO BE DONE

GIVE ME THE ENERGY

Thanks for letting me meet such a wonderful person........ he seems really nice.....

on the other hand I want u to forgive me for not wanting to be with this other guy........ it's not my fault that I don't like him....... I mean he's totally not someone that I'm attracted to........ I can't ..........help him urself......... we're just not right for eachother......

KHODAYA SHOKRET ........AZ TAHE GHALBAM SHOKRET

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