Yes... I'm a mess.....
There are SO many things right now that I am incredibly happy about...... and that's why I sometimes wonder why I have to be sad about something that didn't work out.....
The truth is that I'm worried because I RARELY like someone...... yes... it's like once every 2-3 years....... and I DO WANT TO GET MARRIED AND MAKE A FAMILY
I say I'm a mess because just a few weeks ago when I was in a "relationship" I was thinking how nice it would be if I could quit my job or move to a lower level that doesn't require as much thinking... but now that my relationship is over I'm SO THANKFUL that this is my job... challenging and exciting!
It's all about creating that balance...
GOOD LUCK
I will love again......I'm sure.......
Just need to GET OVER IT!
GOD HELP ME GET OVER IT
OR SHOW ME A CLEAR SIGN SO THAT I CAN MAKE A DECISION
I know why I feel this way...... because I keep thinking that there is a possibility that he will message me and say that he wants me back....... but I don't want to live my everyday waiting....... the chances are 50/50