Everything happens for a reason

Im too excited cant force myself to get up :D

And i hate it :))) and love it :)

Am i wrong?

I aint trying to do what everybodys doing
Just casz everybodys doing what they all do

Well
Guess what
I am so freaking in love
I love it but at the same time hate myself for allowing myself to have such strong feelings "at first sight"

But thats what i want and...

No comments.... Too soon to tell...


I just know that i still dont like talking on the phone

How am I doing?

I'm ok... Cant complain too much... I'm (as usual) desperate for a man in my life so I can shower him with love... Lol either that or a baby... But i guess in order to create a baby i need a man... Which reminds me that i need to get my driver's license!!! Grrrrrr

Just got home from the gym... I feel AMAZING... Im gonna take a shower and head out again... I need to buy curtains... Not sure what color though...

So who is worse than women in love?

Gay men! They are more romantic than women and when their heart breaks it shatters...

The question is

How am i imagining paradise in iceland? Idk but i am! C'est la vie

Ps

Im waiting for news... Im waiting for good news... Please god! I think that i really want this... I think this will b good for me
Plz and thank u!

Update

Hm theres this guy that ive been chatting w for the past week... Hes cute... Super cute... Not my type... Or is he? I havnt been on tinder... Tired for now... Exploring myself for now...

Another date

Aren't i tired from going on so many? Well, I am but... Cant give up now lol

Another date

So I went on my second date yesterday... With that guy... He was tall and handsome but he was a kid... And something inside me wants to help and "fix" him

The other guy messaged me... I replied but didnt want to

Even the one from last week messaged... I dont have much to say to him either

I don't get it!

I went on another date last night... He was nice but I didn't feel attracted to him

My friend thinks that it's not possible to have a relationship with someone you are attracted to... The best you can do is possibly "enjoy" sleeping with them but that'll be about it

I refuse to beleive that

I'm sure I can end up finding someone that's a nice guy and I'm attracted to

I can't force myself to fall in love... He may make a good husband but?

That's why I'm going on another date 12 hours after

Dont give up

Its almost 2 am

My heater is making a humming sound

I have a date tomorrow

Chatted w 2 other guys and may see them next week

Bad influence from Iran? Or just looking for love? I think just looking for love 😍

I flirt like a man

Valla... I think that's the problem

Good news!

I'm over it!!! I will confirm this comment tomorrow but I dont miss him anymore... Hmmm... Nice :D

I will not stop trying to find the one! This I promise you :)

Must save money to travel

Just saying

:(

Delam baraaye hale khoobi ke badaz wow va awow dashtam tang shode

(Naghshe ghorbani :D)

He texted me back!

Lol... I'm such a teenagerrrrr! :)) i guess that's all I needed to make my day... So ridiculous!! Out of control

Love for my job

Khodaaraa shokr migooyam kaari daaram ke beh man komak mikonad az vahshathaaye zendegi faraar konam

:))

I don't really know what to say.... I had a date last night with an AMAZING looking guy... It turned out that he's 1 year younger than me... I was kind of nervous.... As amazing as he was I was scared the whole time... Is it because I can't imagine my life with someone that's so good looking? What am I scared of? That's the question! My heart hurts lol

My mom just called me and wants me to go there... Fine... Bye

Too many teachers... too many lessons... too thankful!

I am so grateful for every single person that has come across in my life..... except for one lol .... well I don't know why SHF came to my life... although I learned a lot during the short time I was with him..... although I know for sure that it's a good thing that it ended because he was super busy with his life..... I don't know what I need to do to get closure...... for now I'm just living life..... and today I got too excited about life..... sometimes or most of the times I am overwhelmed by how amazing things are..... so many things that I love and appreciate..... even at work...... I am constantly confronted by amazing people/teachers...... they worry me about my own life but I love being around them....... they teach me how I should be thankful about my family..... they teach me that focusing too much on work may result in a raise but not necessarily a good life... they challenge me to think about the definition of what a good life is ....... I search for it... I google it.... it's constantly on my mind.....

It's amazing how thankful I am for EVERY SINGLE THING in my life..... and it's amazing how sad I can still be...... and it's an adventure to look for the reasons........

My biggest worry is not finding the love of my life....... I know it sounds stupid and I think it is.... but the thought of not getting married in the next two years and not having kids before the age of 35 bothers me a lot.......

Yes I do want it... yes I do want it ALL

As much as I love my job because it's challenging, what am I really contributing to this world by going to work? this also bothers me.....

I am looking for something bigger... much much bigger....... but I can't quiet put my finger on it..... (and when it's too big it's a challenge to get it in ;) ) :)))) I can't believe I just said that.......

ok there you go... you can go ahead and change your mind about me.... but it's the reality..... it's a challenge :))

I'm gonna shut up now...... and think some more........

Haalemaan khoobast... Gham kam mikhorim

Ino goftam ke kasi negaran nashe...

Delam gerefte bood chon yade oon oftadam (shf) va in niz bogzarad ham dar khatab be mozooye oon bood... Vali I'm doing much better and Im sure ill b able to completely move on... Thanks to Mohammad, my new love lol this is a guy that I saw once in the motherland... He was super handsome and had the nicest voice... He was also interested in coming to Canada... Can I marry him? Lol .... No seriously... Can I? :D

Ok nm... Time to go to bed... And dream about a mohammad like guy to be my future husband :) amen

Gngt
Mand thank u god fir everything!

In niZ bogzarad

I just got back from my vacation to motherland... It was much much better than I thought it would be... 1 week would have been enough but I was there for 3 weeks... Alaan delam gerefteh...

Manam tanhaa tarin jazireye rooye zamin
To midooni darde mano ghorbat neshin
Jazireyi gomgashteam shodeh bonbast donyaye man
Ey rahgozar az bikasi shode masmoom havaye man

Hala naghsheh ghorbani:



Man hamoonam ke hamishe ghamo ghossash bishomare
Ooni ke tanhatarine hatta saaye ham nadaare
Oon manam ke khoobiasho kasi harvez nashenakhte
Oon ke dar raahe refaghat hameye hastisho bakhte

Har rafighe rahi ba mando se roozo hamssafar bood
Entehaye harrefaghat vase man che zoodgozar bood

Harki ba zemzemeye eshgh do seroozi ashegham bood
Eshghe oon baaese marge hameye daghayegham shod

:D i feel so much better now... Thanksgil to god...

❤️❤️❤️

Just felt like complaining a little... I'm fine though :)