Va faghat khaatereh haast.....ke dast naakhorde bejaa mimaanand

:)

aaah ino fekr konam yadam raft begam.....farsiam havas daram benevisam

in rooza (yeh maahe akhari ke gharare talaf beshe o man ghadresho nadoonam) roozayeh badian.....chon ehsas mikonam beyne zamino asemoonam......yeh paam injaa, yeh paam oonja, hanooz dars tamoom nashodeh, maloom nist beshe, maloom nist vaghti beshe kar begiram, maloom nist age kar begiram inja begiram ya oonja, maloom nist age oonja kar begiram chetori ba khodam kenar biam ke az khanevade dooram, maloom nist mamanina bara graduation chetor mikhan bian oon shahre boring, maloom nist che g*hi mikham bokhoram...... akhey in foshe akhar kheyli chasbid...........

generally in a good mood :D :D moohamo highlight kardam.....enghade ghashang shodeh biiiiiiiid ......love EET

Resid va aan khameh abroo boland kardo gozasht.... (haminjoori too moodeh she'r raftam, khoshhaal nashin, khabari nist!)

بعد چندین انتظار آن مه به خاک ما گذشت
گرچه درد انتظار از حد گذشت اما گذشت
روز شب گردد ز تاریکی اگر بیند به خواب
آن چه بی‌خورشید روی او ز غم بر ما گذشت
از رهی آزاده سروی خاست کز رفتار او
بانگ واشوقا گذشت از آسمان هر جا گذشت
نسبت خاصی از او خاطر نشینم شد که دوش
با تواضعهای عام از من به استغنا گذشت
لحظه‌ای زین پیش چون شمعم سراپا در گرفت
حرفم آن آتش زبان را بر زبان گویا گذشت
ای زناوکهای پیشین جان و دل مجنون تو
تیر دیگر در کمان لطف نه آنها گذشت
پر تزلزل شد زمین یارب قیامت رخ نمود
یا زخاک محتشم آن سرکش رعنا گذشت

It's a constant battle.....

In my mind there's a constant battle....one side of it wants me to start hanging out with non persians again when I go back to school so I can overcome all my fears of being around non-persians......the other side of me thinks that's super boring and wants me to hang out with persians....

PS

Maybe there's a reason why I'm more at peace these days......
I finally accepted the fact that I live in another city....that's why it takes me 2 hours if I want to go see my friends.... and my friends thought that I was weird for traveling all this distance to see them and come back :-|.....the truth is that I do too, I just did it since it was part of my routine back in the days that I worked there.....but now that I don't anymore it kind of is ridiculous to travel all this distance just to see them for an hour and then come back!

I have no idea what I'm doing these days.... I WANT SOMETHING BIG TO HAPPEN....SOMETHING GOOD.....SOMETHING EXCITING.... THAT'S MY WISH..... I'LL B W8ING FOR IT :)

I always have all these great ideas in my head that would look fantastic if they were turned into an animation..... too bad I can't do it myself.....

I'm still fine! In a much better mood these days..... I hate the fact that there's no one around me that I have a crush on.....

LIFE IS LOVE.....

Must find Love to Live a better Life......

Love helps one grow......I know this as a FACT!

NEED LOVE TO BE STRONG :)

I've been online searching which is a BAD idea.... must quit soon!

Everyday that passes by seems like a great day that is a much better day than the upcoming days in the future.....

Eventhough they are not anything close to being perfect I feel like I should cherish every moment so I will.....

It's been like that for a few days..... hope it stays this way.....

Keep smiling

:D :D :D :D :D

Bekhand ta donya be rooyat bekhandad!

It's a good feeling when you hold someone and hug someone and have nothing but love for them...... and yes it's possible to do that without saying the words out loud because it's possible that it might be just you feeling this way ....and yes it's possible to feel this way when you are unsure of how the other person is feeling.... but once you find out how that person feels, if the feeling is not mutual RUN! Don't wait around and hope for something to happen.... just don't!

I'm happy with the decision I made....

If someone is unhappy in a marriage, and they have a kid, should they get a divorce?

I sometimes think that my parents should have....but I have no idea how my life would have turned out if they had! I'm glad that they have each other even if they rarely talk ..... but seeing them like this always ALWAYS upsets me..... that's why I still can't decide what kind of advise I should give people that are having problems in their marriage..... but I know I'm more towards sayin "just get a divorce"!

belong.....

That I do not......

SIGH

SO tired!

45 more days of BORING until I get back to life and study for 8 more months for something that I want as a degree not an education.....and then ......hopefully I'll find a job and learn more about me and life.....and then what?

Don't want to say more.....

I'm thankful and I know that everything will work itself out.....

When you believe somehow you will...
You will when you believe....

Thankful

Current emotional status: happy :)

camping time con la familia! :D

have a few plans for when I come back...
1st one being jogging!
and some other ones tbd

have a great weekend everyone! :)

must make a plan......

I wanna be like them...... not all of them.....the ones that are good.....

My problem is that I think they're fake..... I don't want to be fake.... there's a small percentage of them that seem to be perfect.... I want to be one of those, but I can't be like them caz I've had a different past......

I can't change the past but I can change the future....
I shouldn't want to be one of them, I should just try to be a better version of myself.....

And I'm sorry if I'm hurting this new guy's feelings......in my opinion he's just too negative, and I can't be around people like that....

I know that I've always said that I like helping people, I've even said that I'm attracted to guys that are a bit needy..... there was something missing....... definitely what he was wearing did NOT help. Guys, please do not wear sandals or flip flops with pants. They only look nice with shorts!!!

He's actually a nice person. Just not what I'm looking for......

Must change my focus before I go crazy.....

Must make new plans......

Mini date

I went out with one of the guys that I met yesterday..... maybe I shouldn't even call it a date because we just met up for coffee and talked about nothing special..... I had the familiar feeling of not liking him (as I've had on the many other dates that I've been to)..... it sucked! He has made plans for us to "study together" for the next 2 weeks since he has an exam at the end of the month and then just hang out.... he even asked about my university and is thinking about transferring there! BS!!!! It's all an act if you ask me.....whether it is or not, I don't care........ because I'm just not that into him :)

I don't even know what I'm doing .....that's the problem.......

My plan is to stay at home all day tomorrow and resssst.....I'm SO tired/bored..... I have nothing to do these days...... even though I went camping/went to a BD party yesterday!

Note of the day: There's a difference between what one wants and what one needs.......

BTW I forgot .....

6 weeks ago was my second birthday and I didn't even know it!

Happy belated 2nd yr of :D to me :)

Thankful for.....

Being a positive person....

For having the ability to show that I'm :D even if I'm not really....

For understanding that my problems are not even close to being a "real" problem therefore I try to be thankful for all the other things that I have and focus more on what I have rather than what I don't have....

Many many things..... I just hope that "some people" around me (specially a specific family member) learns to be the same!!!

I know that people are different and some have to express themselves to feel better ..... but the reality is that I think when one talks about their problems all the time she/he gives more weight to something that has already been heavy enough.... I'd like to hear at least one positive thing between all the negatives :( (am I complaining now too? oh no!)

I'm gonna go to bed now...

Monday is a big day......

Keep your fingers crossed for me....

Please god..... let me get what I want on Monday!

I will tell you what it was on Monday ;)

Wish me luck

Buenas noches <3

Once you grow up....

you'll know that love is not exactly what you read in romantic novels or romantic movies......

I wonder when I'll grow up!

It's disgusting that people have learned to look in eachother's eyes and easily lie just so they can get what they want.

One of the ways that I've iimproved from last year is that I've learned to not be so indifferent! It's a great feeling to feel sad/happy/excited! It's not great....it's amazing! I hope it doesn't go away.....

Who should I thank for this big change? I think part of it might have been because of VJ.... I'm so glad that I finally met him and left him where he belongs, in the past.

One of the most important things that I learned by living alone is that friends are the most important thing in your life, good friends that is...
Still working on that.......I'm verrrrrrrrry bad at it..... I might not even know the first thing about what friendship means.....but I sure know that I will be trying to have friends and friendships.... they're good for you....they're good for the soul! :)