roozeh avval pisheh khod goftam digarash hargez nakhaaham did....

Roozeh dovvom ham chenin goftam... niz baa andooho ba tardid........

Rooze sevvom ham gozasht amma.........

LOL


see this proves that I'm in love hahaha

ok I have gone crazy

GOOD NIGHT

Grrrr

At times in life you get so mad that you don't even know how to calm yourself down......

I'm so SO mad at him...... and so SO sad.......

I really liked him :(

He didn't message me all day today...... I went on the website.... he came online and left.... I messaged him on the phone........ he didn't reply.......

not that I'm waiting for an answer because I told him I dont think this is working out... have a good life! lol

OMG...... I'm going crazy....... suddenly I'm under so much stresssss........

GOD SHOW ME THE WAY

The best thing for me is to go to bed........ hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.......

khodaya shokret be khatere HAMECHI

dooset daram

It's over! lol

I've been on the computer for almost 45 minutes and suddenly remembered the main reason why I turned it on.......wanted to write about this.......

It's over! Yes...... I had given it until Sunday night to see if anything happens.... but no... nothing did..... just a few random texts about the weather and how much it sucks that he has to work on the weekends...... and that's it.......

I've always said and will say it again: RESPECT is the #1 rule when it comes to my relationships....

If someone doesn't bother to give you a ride home at 10:30 at night or prefers watching the game instead of at least walking you to the bus station that means that they either are not that into you or are that immature in either case meaning that you shall not go on a date with them again....... I broke this rule once and ended up breaking up (with HT)...... I was about to do it again actually (desperate, are we? lol)..... but the truth is that I really liked this guy and was hoping it would work out...... but since he didn't make any other efforts to see me (ok he has worked all weekend and is tired/ but didn't even bother to ask me out for next week/ and no it's not my job to ask him out) ......

So goodbye BL!

I will give u updates if anything changes.......but for now..... no more checking viber to see if he's online...... IT's OVER! :D

ps I'm such a mess these days don't even know what to do :( .... I'm moving out in less than 2 weeks..... that's exciting..... but have no other plans......

Reminder to myself: Do not act like a doormat!

grrrrr

Dating is so frustrating!!! Or it could be so frustrating......

I really like him a lot..... but it is probably because he's so cocky....... why is that so attractive? he is cute too... and has a pretty nice personality...... and is funny........ but he has pissed me off so much + has not payed any attention to me that I think he really isn't that much into me!!! lol..... yes.... it's true....

ok fine...... so I'll move on..... I kind of already have...... but I wish I knew why.......

oh well...... hopefully I'll have better luck next time..........

Face your fears.......

As much as I'm thankful and happy for what I've got, I feel like life is still very confusing and challenging....

I have recently realized that I feel more and more like an outsider every day...... although I'm planning to change this (like many other things on the long list) not much has changed........

Moving back home wasn't easy...... I have no idea how the past 2 months passed by so fast!!!!!

Feeling numb and stressed out in a different way.........

I literally can't wait to see what happens with the guy I went on a blind date with......

On the one hand I REALLY like him which is super rare but on the other hand I feel so self conscious these days for some reason that I am completely intimidated by him........ he is not throwing himself at me like the usual and so far I've had to almost chase him....... we'll see what happens........I'll keep you posted....... going on a second date on Wednesday

for now I feel like he is too self loving.......

to be continued.......