2 things... No... A few things

1) gratitude
2) commitment to happiness

Other thing: i went to a hot spring w my ma and sis and it was the greatest experience ever... It was as if I was dreaming... And what added to my happiness was being pursued by ... Lets call him the charming man... I'm attracted to him... And that's about it


He doesnt have a proper job... And i am not even willing to give him a chance bcz of that... But def a good distractuon

Gratitude

I'm so thankful for everything

I've been sick this week which reminds me why I should be thankful,..

Khodaayaa shokret... Kheyli doooset daaram... Help me find a long lasting love... Please and thank you!!!

Haalemaan khoobast gham kam mikhorim😇💕💕

Love...

love has the power to heal... Love has the power to destroy... Love has the power to move mountains


Let's start with self love... After all, what's there not to love?

Why am I saying this? Well, the truth is that there is currently only one guy that I really like... Someone I've had a crush on for a while... A tall, handsome knight in shining armor... Not the player type...

Why am I saying this? Only because he commented on something I had written... That made my day... Wouldn't it be cool if he asked me out? 😱 Lol ok I'm gonna just be "high" on this for the next hour or so and just clean my apartment :)

Hmm

Do we live to suffer?

Is life all about the beauty and excitement of attachment and the pain and sorrow from the afterwards disconnection?

Were we borne to connect and disconnect, to grow through the process... Or is there a higher purpose?

Despite all the heart ache...

I know everything happens for a reason... I'm sure of it!!!

I will NEVER give up on love... I mean it...

I think it will be a tall and handsome blonde guy...

I just know it!!!

Stormy weather..

I hadnt been this sad in a long time... I was literally balling my eyes out... Goolleh goolleh az cheshaam ashk mioomado zajjeh mizadam... As if something had died... I had finally killed my love... Deleted him... His number and from fb and insta... Thats how life and love is in tbe digital world these days... Everything happens online... I am feeling better now... Although I'm still sad...my eyes feel heavy from crying... But I had to... Couldnt stop my tears from falling... As much as I like to think of myself as a strong person... I will be recovering in the next few weeks... I deserve a long lasting love...

Happy valentines day...

Survive

sometimes we just have to survive

I just want to be in love... That's all

Not being in love makes me frustrated... As much as i dont want to

Maybe it's just the rain... Not sure!

Khodaayaa shokret

Why am I doing this??!!

today was an amazing day
I felt great!

Not sure why

But I almost don't even want to see him anymore

I feel ashamed for agreeing to meet up with someone who in a way "destroyed" me

He wants to have a spontaneous night... Whatever that means!!!

I admit... I have my weak moments and cant help it... Like this weekend I wanted to be with him so badly... But now...

I feel indifferent but I will go with the flow

Wtf...

I was all excited today and was telling myself that this temporary happiness is worth whatever happens tomorrow... But right now I don't even feel like I want to see him anymore... i guess I will do it just to get it out of my system but my beauty and love is convincing me that I deserve more... Not sure how and when I will find it but I WILL find it!

For now I'm gonna see him tomorrow... Hmm

Arghhh

I went to whistler this weekend w fanily and friends (theirs) and i couldnt help but think of him like the whole time!!!! It was really terrible... I mean I tried hard not to but couldnt help it... Specially the road... Every moment of it made me feel overwhelmed... :(

It's my own fault... But im glad i went and I stayed... It was good to be ariund couples with kids... I'm so thankful and I hope I make the right decision... I truly honestly think that he knows he can't be the one for me / that ge is not good enough for me/ it's a blessing that he has walked out on me but every cell of my body wants him... I guess thongs will be a but more clear by Tuesday night... Will he or will he not ask me out for coffee? Will / will I not accept... These are the questions...

Hmm

Confused about life/love/career

Need to find some answers...

I'm sure I will...

And I hope it's that time of the month tomorrow...

What else could explain this mood? :)

Tanhaayeh tanhaa...

Shab ba taaboote siaah
Neshast tooye cheshaash
Khaamoosh shod setaareh
Oftaad rooye khaak
Saayeash ham nemimoond
Hargez poshtdh saresh
Ghamgin boodo khasteh
Tanhaayeh tanhaa

Baa labaayeh teshneh
Beh axeh yeh cheshmeh
Naresiid taa bebineh
Ghatreh ghatreh
Ghatreyeh aab

Dar shabe bi tapesh
In taraf oon taraf
Mioftaad ta beshnave
Sedaa ... Sedaa...
Sedaayeh paa.. Sedaayeh paa...

Meh...

Other than the fact that I had a great weekend from my friend out of town today I felt lime I miss him and wanted to message him... It's so exhausting sometimes... Not only that, I'm wondering about what I should do with my job and education etc