Lahzei baa man baash.......taa az aan lahzeh berooyam taa gol.....taa bebandam az negaahe to be sad setaareh pol

what a wonderful night.......... the sky is clear....... and I can see the moon....... lighting up the sky....... it looks beautiful

today turned out to be an ok day.......... thnks to James......... I think........ who is a Chinese guy....... that I really like 'cause he's so sweeeeeeeeeet ........ not in a gay way........but in a very manly way........... but dont worry..... I will stay away from him......... I just like getting attention from the opposite sex every once in a while.........even if the opposite sex is a chinese guy......... :)

5 more days until I become a "normal" person = :D

wow .......can't believe it..........

even though i have a temporary full time job now I'm just not that excited about it ........ so I'm happy that it's only a temporary job......... but dont get me wrong......... I'm very greatful to god for giving me the opportunity to work for this company........ it will be a great experience

but for some reason......and I'm sure many of u have felt this way at some point in ur life......... it feels like as I get closer to achieving the things I want I get more stressed out wondering what to do next.......... will there ever be a point of satisfaction?

recently I have not been able to distract myself that much and for some reason I do want to find someone........ I feel like I need to find someone........I need to LOVE ..........

I hate FB........... you know when I think about love who comes to my mind right?........and that person is on FB ......... which is very :S ......specially since he's so active........ his name seems to be everywhere........and I really dont want to delete him ....... maybe I should deactivate my account again?

No.......... I must be strong......... the fact that he has added "in a relationship" to his relationship status makes me wanna puke..........dont ask me why!

trust me........... I'm over this whole thing....... but as I've told u before........... everything around me these days is so negative that I can't help myself but to think about those happy days of my life...........

ishalla ke dobaareh aashegh besham!

Tapesheh nabzeh zireh cheshm!!!

ahhh......... I don't like it......... vaaseh aadam a'saab nemizaaran

hadaf fe'lan gozaroondaneh zamaan va in rooz haast..........fe'lan keh chizi beh esmeh khosh haali dar khodam nemibinam......... I've been having dull days and nights for a while now..... even though nothing specifically is too wrong it's, as I've mentioned before, the people around me (I think) that are causing this mood ......... and there's nothing I can do to help it........ the storm has landed here and I should just wait to see when the sun will come out again....... there's definately personal opportunity and room for progress and growth .......... there is just no motivation for it

kaash yeki bood keh kheyli doosesh daashtamo harf zadan baahaash aaroomam mikard :(

I can't say I'm sad..........I just feel empty ...........

Who I am..........

Lowering my expectation to 0 has helped me reduce the many disappoitments in life..........this has resulted in me appreciating every bit that goes well a lot more..... but, at the same time, the core of carelessness is sometimes a dissapointment on its own

I called P then msged her then called again.......... no respond yet.......... getting worried...........

Digeh geryeh dardio davaa nemikoneh............

mikhaastam geryeh konam............. mesleh hamisheh tasmim gereftam nakonam chon ba geryeh kardan hich moshkeli hal nemisheh..............

vaghti beh doro baram negaah mikonam ............. az tak takeh khaanevaadam gerefteh..........taa doostaam ............taa mardomeh keshvaram............. hameh moshkelaat daaran.......... jaalebish ineh keh hameh dar asl yek moshkeleh moshtarek daaran...........vaa oon kam tavajjohieh ........... hamashoon motmaennan alaan aadamaayeh kheyli khoshhal tari boodan ageh beheshoon tavajjoheh bishtari mishod..............

beh har haal harfeh khassi baraayeh goftan nadaaram................ hoseleyeh fekr kardano geryeh kardanam nadaaram........... khoshbakhtaaneh saram be andaazeyeh kaafi shoolooghe va khastegim enghad ziaadeh keh baa fekr kardan be inaa emkaan nadaareh divooneh besham!

farda saat 4 e asr be vaghte iran raahpeimaai hast ke shayad sarnevesht saaz baasheh...... aslan delam nemikhaad dobaareh akhbaare margeh kasio bekhoonam........... faghat mitoonam baraashoon doaa konam

man aashegheh mardomeh iraanam............ kaash oonaa ham mitoonestan mesleh maa khoshbakht baashan...........

چه رنجی است لذت ها را تنها بردن. چه زشت است زیبایی ها را تنها دیدن و چه بدبختی آزار دهنده ای است تنها خوشبخت بودن

khodaya khodet komakeshoon kon........... aslan tasavvoreh zarbeyeh roohi e ke be inaa mikhoreh (ageh be chizi ke mikhaan naresan ) dar fekram nemigonjeh.........

I wish them the best

beh omideh rooz haayeh behtar va......... tolooeh farda

Midooni keh bi to sakhteh zendegi....ammaa negaat..... joon sepordaneh dele mano che asoon mikoneh.....

I feel lost.............

What to do nexxxxxxxxxxxxxxt?

~*sigh*~

To o faseleh ba ham yeki shodin........ mano paahaam beh residan naa omid...

Cheghad in ahango goosh kardam!

4 more weeks...........

I have already made my wish list for the upcoming week

1) Course
2) Job

please and thank you!

hmmm........ i have nothing else to say.............

it's good to trust............ everything happens for a reason..........

it's almost 2:30 a.m. ........ my parents are gonna wake me up at 8!! I should've gone to sleep earlier.......... what kept me up? not sure.........but i will regret staying up this late tomorrow when I get up........

update June. 19th

I got #1
I wasn't able to register in "the course" since I've graduated! ....... but it's ok......... ghesmat naboodeh

khodayaa ..........shokret!

Don't let ur own fear stand in the way of ur dreams.......

I can only hope ...................

Looking forward to.........

July 4th!!! = :D finally!

Robat vs. Human being

Sometimes I'm not really sure.......... I know I do have feelings because I have experienced the feelings of happiness/ sadness / anger even if it doesnt happen too often........

But in general I do sometimes feel like I'm trying too hard..........sometimes it comes naturally ........ but sometimes I'm like ok....... pick up the phone.......... message .......... don't ignore............ go out...........

If it was up to me I would probably stay at home all the time or go out all alone.......... except for very rare moments that I have the feeling of being around others........... other times i just wanna be left alone.........and sometimes after I do force myself to pick up the phone/go out etc. I end up thanking myself because I do end up having fun........ but when it comes to making a decision me being alone is the one that I prefer!

hmmm........

چرا تو جلوه ساز این بهار من نمیشوی
چه بوده آن گناه منکه یار من نمی شوی
بهار من گذشته شاید
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چه بهتر آن که نشنوی ترانه من
نه قاصدی که از من آرد
گهی بسوی تو سلامی
نه رهگذاری از تو آرد
گهی برای من پیامی
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غمت چو کوهی
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چو نشنوی فغان عاشقانه من
خدا تورا از من نگیرد
ندیدم از تو گر چه خیری
بیاد عمر رفته گریم
کنون که شمع بزم غیری
بهار من گذشته شاید

What I think of you........

I judge you based on how you make me feel about me when I'm with you..........

That's the answer......... but I'm not sure if that's how it's supposed to be......... is everyone really like this? So if someone pays a lot of attention to me and cares about me and helps me improve myself and my personality without judging me I will overlook things such as their looks ........ so does this mean I'd leave them when I reach my full potential? or will I stay with them because of all they did for me (Even though let's say they're short and ugly :D ) ........... hmmmmmmm............ good question!

Everything is better when I'm around?

Yea!

I think so :D

Gaahi masireh jaaddeh beh bonbast miravad........

Ahhhhhhhhh

Khaste shodam.......... farda miram miporsam! Stupid application form :X ....... :)