I've been chatting with this guy for the past few weeks....... yes chatting...........
He's from where I live and he seemed really nice and everything at the beginning...... I can safely say that I liked him too until a few days ago when I started thinking that I do not want to even think about seeing someone who is
1) Uneducated
2) Bahaai
and has a German Shepard dog!!
NO WAY
#1 is the most important one......... being uneducated (not having a degree) makes someone very bi kelaas in my mind....... and I'm very strict about these things....... no matter how much he loves me I just can't respect him enough just because of that........ call me an old fashion thinker caz I truely am one!
On the other hand I chatted with a 37 yr old guy yesterday and started building a future together with him in my head........ even though I've always said I dont want any kids etc. I don't mind marrying a manly man who can take care of the expenses while I make/raise babies for him............
But is that really true? Is that really how I feel??? I think 37 is a bit too old........... I can't get myself to like someone 10+ yrs older than me can I? I really dont think so.........
Anyways.......... nothings gonna happen with this guy since he's not from here........... but it really got me thinking........
Are we safe to say that I want to be single and independent forever unless someone so great comes along that can really take care of me?
I have no answer to that question yet but I think we will find out some time in the future :)
p.s. I hate hurting other people's feelings....... he told me he liked me ......... I kinda made fun of him and called him stupid......... I hope he doesnt message me again............ I still feel bad.......... I'm so ahmagh for ever starting anything............. don't I know anything about me ?????? I think I am desperate for some attention but do not want anything serious!
GOOD NIGHT
KHODAA BAA MAAST :*