Ms. K. A!

ME and my craziness........

You know who I'm jealous of? K.A ....... ex gf of R D ........ well maybe I shouldn't say jealous but everytime I see her picture or think of her I get angry and upset...... Dont ask me why...... I kind of know why....... but the reason is really stupid....... because R D was her bf......... and he misses her so much....... he still talks about her all the time........ and I have a crush on him for nooooooo reason....... if he ever tells me he likes me I will just run away or something......... but at the same time I really really like him..... so I donnow....... I guess i'm just sad for him .......

I WANT TO GET AWAY....... I WANT TO FLY AWAY... YEA YEA YEA!

I'm so worthless......... but not that hopeless......... not there yet! I'm so busy with school........ I'm not D*** but I feel like I want to be isolated from everyone because there is a big negative energy in me....... and the people who know me like P push my buttons sometimes........ and I get angry ....... so I havent talked to her in about 10 days........ and I'm happy......... I dont like to see the "pity look" on her face...... grrrrrrr

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I feel sorry for myself ....... but I dont want anyone to be anything but happy for me.....

I died my hair........ long story........

anyways.......... I feel like i need a BIG BIG CHANGE........... hope to go to Toronto this summer......... I need to change this life......... maybe I will............. please pray for me

KHODAYA KOMAKAM KON KOMAKAM KON NAZAR INJA BEMOONAM TA BEPOOSAM........ KOMAKAM KON NAZAAR TA LABAAYEH MARGO BEBOOSAM

Weird Dream

ok so I had planned to go to Toronto ( and I'm actually planning of going there this Summer)

But as it turns out, my parents decide to join me.....so all of us go together........

Then .... I go to a hotel to get a room for myself......... and I pay 130 dollars for it........ but then I spend the whole night in my parent's room......and the next day I want my money back but they don't give it to me and I get really sad and man for having wasted 130 dollars!

Anyways........apparently we were coming back to Vancouver on that day..... but obvioslyy I had almost planned to see VJ before I come back (duh!!)

But then......... his gf shows up at my door ....... or I see her somewhere........and she asks me to leave VJ alone........she says that they're in love etc.

and I was like....... ok duddddde back off....... there is nothing between us.......and even if I wanted to see him it was onlly because we are friends !!!

But she asks me not to go to him....... and I get even more mad for ever going to Toronto and wasting $130!!!