:(

why is he so maghroorrrr?

I can't believe that he really doesn't like me! that's not possible

I miss him so much :(

Stupid guys with their physical needs!!!!!!!!!!

There are two ways in which a heart can break...

1) When you're in love with someone and for some reason that person has to leave, can't be together forever because of family problems etc

2) When someone breaks your heart with what they say, when they seem like they don't care about you when in your mind you thought you were in love

and it's #2 that's easy to forget! Or I hope......it's only the first day

It's mind boggling how much I have changed in the past year
I can't keep up with the speed that I'm changing..... and it's all in a good way! I should be so very thankful and I am...... thanks for all the opportunities that you have put before me so I can experience all these new great things.....

It was only 3 monthes ago that I was depressed for breaking up with MH..... but then I moved on and I met someone else..... we've been together for 2 monthes now..... I still feel like he doesn't appreciate me enough...... I don't know about what I'm gonna do......

He's out partying now without me! Do I deserve this? Do I think he's after other girls? No But do I think it's not right that he's doing this? Yes a little bit.....

Some days I think so highly of myself......and somedays I think I'm a nothing....... hopefully I'll realize the true value of me before making a huge mistake..... people tell me I'm great..... or maybe I hang out with people who think I'm great? I don't know....... I have my days....

I just pray to god to show me the right way..... I like him and all..... but..... our relationship is not as magical as it was at the beginning ......and I understand that it's only the first few monthes that's amazing...... but it wasn't me who changed...... I want the romance to go on forever....

I told him that I don't feel like he likes me.....and I told him about how he did things at the beginning to make me feel like he likes me......and in response he said "well I did that at the beginning so I thought that you already know about how I feel" .......then I said to him showing someone that you have feelings for them is not something that should stop after a while!

Maybe I'm being too childish....... but I have too much respect for myself to let someone who just came here and who has nothing yet to tell me that what I do is wrong!

What happened?

Chera enghad pesara deleshoon khosheh? Chera ghadreh adamo nemidoonan? Yani enghadr dokhtar rikhte ke ashegheshoon beshan? Makhsoosan vaghti hichi nadaaran chon pesaran fekr mikonan ke hamechishoon ok e? in che vazeshe?

What happened to my feelings? Why do I feel that he doesn't appreciate me? I want to break up with him .... he's so cute though :( But I'm not in love with him anymore......because he's so immature! And everytime I say that we should break up he's like "as you wish"!!! WTF!!!!!!

Cheghad sakhteh.......

Cheghad delam hanooz hichi nashodeh barash tang shodeh :(
I wish he was a bit more mature.....

beh gholeh oon yyyyyyyyyyyy khoda

manammmm
rooyeh zamin tanhaatarin khaakeh khoda
hameh tanam dar hasrateh ya jaayeh paa
jazire am jazireyi ke hamishe too ghorbatam
tanhaam nazar ey rahgozar
MAN TESHNEYEH MOHABBATAM
to nadidi che gharibeh, jazireh
yeh khaakeh tooyeh aab asireh

hamishe too haraaseh margeh
keh roozi zireh aab namireh :)

az roozegar delam gerefteh
az in tekrar delam gerefteh
delam mikhaad geryeh konam
baroon bebaar delam gerefteh

baraayeh gom kardaneh khish
rahaa shodan az kamo pish
baraayeh dar khod gom shodan
jodaa az in mardom shodan

bahaaneyeh geryeh mikhaam
bahaaneyeh faryaad zadan
biaa to baash ey mehrabaan
bahaaneyeh geryeyeh man

nemidoonam chemeh.... hamash ghor daaram..... man chi mikhaam? delam az hameh gerefteh..... az khaanevadam chon pisham nistan....az doostai ke nadaram....az inke doosti nadaaram....az inke doost nadaram doosti dashte basham.....az daste khodam kalaafam......az inkeh bf daaramo doosesh daram vali fekr mikonam oon ghadreh mano nemidooneh o hamash asaabam az dastesh khoordeh...... az joonesh chi mikhaam? az jooneh khodam chi mikhaam? cheghad sakhte adam gij baasheh ....faghat delam mikhaad geryeh konam...geryeh konam, geryeh konam :)

jaayeh shokresh baaghieh ke delam mikhad geryeh konam... yani man ehsas daramo aadamamo delam migireh...... in neshooneyeh zendeh boodaneh...... daram kamkam az haalateh bitafaavoti dar miam!

The show must go on......

I hope I make the right decision and feel how I should feel and not over/under react....

All I know is that I'm currently unhappy with the whole situation.... and the fact that .... did not help!

And I just realized that I don't like drunk guyz 1 bit! And I don't like to drink.... WOW

I might really as well wear hijaab

And it finally happened.......

All my worries about the past, present, and the future went away
And he became all of my world

At the beginning I was trying to fight it because I knew that I had to work hard and think about other little things in life that were important.... but slowly all of those went away I was left with only him, his thoughts about me, and my thoughts about him......

I'm not feeling the love these days...... I don't know why..... well I kind of do..... he doesn't even want to tell anyone that we are together!!! I don't understand that....

He's too new...... too inexperienced..... but I'm in love..... so it's ok..... but it might disappear if he stops caring.....