Happiness is...

I think I have maxed out on my hope for a relationship... at least for now... although it's my priority in life I just don't wanna deal w it anymore

Miresam beh to dobaareh...

Vaghti khiaal parvari mikonamo be eshgh fekr mikonam faghat yeh nafar vaazeh jolo sooratam miaad... kheyli jalebe... alan do saal shode va baa koochik tarin chizi mesleh yeh shalvaarak yaade oon mioftam... fekr konam taghsire khodameh ke unblockesh kardam vali oon sammbokeh eshghe baraam... chetori mitoonam faramooshesh konam... agarche delam nemikhad hichvaght too zendegim bargardeh vali chizi ke ba oon tajrobeh kardam ta alan baram tekraar nashode va vaghean faghat eshgh bood...

Anyway... I have not given up on love per se... I'm just tired of the chase... I'm a girl... I refuse to chase...

Belakhareh mord...

taarikheh dar gozasht: 09/08/2017 saateh 10:50

Bavaram nemisheh.... hichvaght fekresho nemikardam keh enghadr vaazeh matgesho bebinam...vali belakhareh akharin nafas haasham tamoom shod va mord...

Oon kheyli sakhti keshid... kheyli talaash kard... kheyli delesh mikhaast gom shodasho peida koneh.... kheyli saboori kard... kheyli ahangayeh asheghanaro doos dashto hefz mikard... kheyli doost dasht keh doosesh dashtan... hamintori keh hast... akhe kheyli saadeo mazloomo doost dashtanieh... vali hamin bood keh kaar dastesh daad... hamin saadegi... hamin mazloomiat... engaar digaro az dasteh khodesh kalaafeh mikard baa khoobiasho sadegiaash... belakhareh emrooz tasmim beh marg gereft...

Cheghadr delesh mikhaast keh maman besheh... az maamaan shodan mitarsid vali bache haro kheyli doost dashto motmaen bood ageh maman besheh hameh kaari baraayeh bachash mikoneh... hanooz hichi nashodeh beh khaatereh bachash govaahinaamasho gereft keh ageh yeh rooz majboor shod khodai nakarde doctor bebaresh betooneh...

Kheyli aziatesh kardan... kheyli ghosseyeh aadamaaro khord... makhsoosan maman babasho... kheyli az daste khodesh kalafeh bood ke hanooz maman babash va khoshhalishoon enghad roosh tasir mizareh... be gholeh maroof cheh badbakhtieh bozorgist tanha khoshbakht boodan

Man ehsaas mikonam kheyli khoshbakhtam va nemikhaam naashokri konam... vali emrooz digeh fekreh eshgho asheghio gozashtam kenar... fekreh inke kasio peida konam barayeh ezdevaajo gozashtam kenar... khasteh shodam enghad donbalesh raftamo naresidam... alan yek saal shod...

Ehsas mikonam roo khod doosti hanooz bayad kheyli kar konam...

Man keh hich darsi az in rabeteh haye kootah moddat nagereftam

Vaghean delam digeh rabeteh haaye ajibo complicated nemikhad... hazer nistam sareh soozanam energymo too hamchin rabeteh hayi sarf konam

Felan I'm on a big break... beh haddi ke be in fekr hastam ke rabetamo ba khahar zadam kheyli khoob konam chon tanha kasi hast ke too ayandeye  doore man mimooneh

Ageh dadashamam bache biare ke cheh behtar

Akheysh... yekam bayad roo khodamo khasteh haam kaar konam...

What are my goals?

Bazi moghe ha...

BaZi moghe ha delam mikhad mahv beshamo digeh peida nasham...

Behem goft mesleh yeh doost mano doos dareh

Khasteh shodam az in harf

Az bi eshghi khaste shodam

Vali hanooz omid daaramo omidvaaram...

Az hameye nasihataayi ke in weekend shenidam haalam beh ham
mikhoreh

In haaro goftam keh yekam aaroom besham

Hm

Sometimes things just fall apart without even exchanging words you wake up one day and realize there was nothing there... I could be wrong but I don't think it should be so hard to start things up.., if I were to go with my got feeling it would tell me that there's something