I was thinking of writing something here yesterday....... but I wasnt home last night........ so now that I'm here i should write it before i forget....... even though i'm really sleepyyyyyyyy.......
I was gonna say that i'm once step closer to my goal...... i was thinking that in the past 5 years i've changed at least in 1 good way........ and that's the fact that I complain a lot less than before......... and the fact that i do my complaining here doesnt count ok???????? lol
I remember I used to say a lot of negative things out loud ........ like "omg i'm so behind..... i have to study" .......... or "aa i'm so tired .......... i wish i could go home" ........ or things like that........ i've become a looooooooooot more positive....... and I try to smile even on a rainy day and try my best to send off a positive energy to those around me........ unless i'm having a really bad day which happens every once in a while......... and even if i do complain i do it with a smile.......... :D
and I'm happy that i've added one more guest to those who would "grief" for me if I die........ lol......... besides my family members I'm sure P would be sad if I die... but now there is someone else.... a classmate...... the last day of classes she thanked me for always being supportive and positive...... so YAY me ........... lol........ but i guess that's one of my biggest goals in life.... to make people remember me.........right now there are not a lot......... my family + p + BM ......... lol
ummmmmmmm so yea......... what else did i wanna say?
oh ....... ishalla khoda hichvaght aadamo mohtaajeh digaraan nakoneeeeeeeee............ i hate asking for favors........... never have and never will .......... unless i have to ............ and this was a time that i had to............ and now i remember why i hate it.............. why should people make such a big deal out of a small help? why should they torture you before they give you what you asked for??????? whyyyyyyyy? ..................grrrrrrrrr...............