Bayad toro peida konam shayad hanooz ham dir nist...

I’m referring to myself

I’m proud of myself for having the courage to stand my ground and talk about my wants and needs without coming across as demanding

I told him the problem and he said that he will go to see the doctor

Not sure what will happen next... not sure if I should be with him while he sorts out his problems... maybe if we weren’t going on a trip together it would have been easier... I’ve said it befote and I say it again: I like him! But I wonder if I like him as a human being or a future husband.... this is something I wonder about... and that issue doesn’t really help


We’ll see

A million things to decide on

Job
Where to live
Who to date
Where to invest my money

Are these first world problems?


Not sure.

Are they problems?

For sure

Az koja aamadeh am? Aamadanam bahreh che bood?

perhaps I’m being too flexible

This flexibility comes from not having a clear idea of what I want exactly m

I think one if the keys to success is having a clear idea if what you want and need and getting exactly that! I know that real life is not a check list that you can just look for and tick off, but at least we can tey

Just like anything else in life, we have limited resources and the most clear one is time. Am I done with my trial of looking for my “ideal” and now I have given up?

Anyway, I know that I am not happy about the situation I am in and I feel like I can’t continue to be nice about it

Heart and the mind

I feel like I’m exhausted about this whole thing.

I know that I need to do something about it and I don’t like the fact that I’m not.

I just feel like running away and not having to deal with it

He is so nice to me and treats me so well! But at the same time I think that I won’t be happy in the long run

Today

I’m glad that it ended up being an ok day
I normally don’t cry at work but today I did
Is this all I am? Is this all I want?

Who am I?

Grateful

I’m grateful for having had people in my life who believed in me more than I believed in myself

Ps

it’s that time of the month... hence why I am so emotional... I also have a lot to deal with at work

It’s one of those times when I am stressed and I just want it to go away

Vaghti to geryeh mikoni ghamgin mishan ghanaariaa...

another day another night inside the lonely world
Another game another fight inside the lonelh world
No matter how hard I can try inside the lonely world
No one can hear me when I cry inside the lonely world
I’ll never know the reasons why inside a lonely world
It’s such a lonely world....

It has come to an end
My joy for my job
My excitement about this city

I think these stuff that I have built around myself will never replace or distract me from how sad I am from being away from my family

I have not recovered from the long winter or the heart break

My current relationship makes me wonder if this is all I think I am worth

He is a great guy... he really is... I just don’t think I can live like this in the long term

Breath in and out

I believe in the power of positivity

Everything will line up for me tomorrow and all will work out

I will win this

Another post on “love”

sometimes I think that I should end it... I want to go back to my city and be with my family

At the same time, his likes are rare... don’t want to lose my chance on “love”

I can say that I do like him... I can’t say I love him yet

I never knew that I would have bedroom problems... it was always so easy and natural... it’s a work in progress... and I guess it could be a deal breaker if we let it... but there is so much to like that this should not stand in the way