بميريد بميريد.... در اين عشق بميريد

Dishab doostam harfeh ghashangi zad... man nabayad energymo sarfeh doostie ghablim konam... behesh goftam keh hanooz baa OO dar tamaas hastam...

Man daram haghighat va khodam ro dar in jodaayi peida mikonam... ehtiaaj beh zamaan daaram. Hamchin tajrobeyi ta beh haal nadashtam va ehsas mikonam hichkas nemitooneh behem komak koneh

Bazi mogheh ha fekr mikonam shayad behtareh therapist bebinam keh bebinam oon chi fekr mikone

Anyway... exciting news is that I’m going on a second date with someone I met yesterday

Wounded

The cut is so deep that it doesn’t feel like it will ever heal

It’s been over 2 months now... I still feel hurt. I want to be an optimist and think that I will fall in love again and everything is going to be ok... but it’s hard... the reality is that it’s hard. I even had a dream about him last night.... a dream in which he was making love to someone else snd she mentioned my name and he said he doesn’t want to talk about me... anyway

There isso much that I am thankful for... I’m on a paid dating app and went on my first datr... it was ok... nothing too mind blowing

In general I’m ok... I’m trying my best not to think about the past... but sometimes I feel like acting like the victim...

He has left but I can’t bury him and his memory

What’s going on?

 I’m watch tv and fall asleep as soon as I come home

I don’t want to deal with anything

Maybe I’m going through a crisis?!

What I want for myself and what I forsee are not aligned...

Maybe it’s time to read the power of now book...

Annoying

I decided to go on Tinder to distract myself a bit and I find myself worrying that the guys I chat with have a mental problem! 🙄

I think I’m scared

Maybe I’m not ready

Also I applied for two jobs in Vancouver today

That’s also scary

#embracegrowth

Amazing weekend!

I was assisting at the workshop which was an amazing experience andI feel so much happier and energetic!

I’m still not 100% w the breakup but I’ve decided to accept all the feelings I get the way they are but not get stuck in them and move passed them... for example when I saw him today my heart sank and I wanted to go in my victim mode and cry but then I decided to ahift ny focus and not think about it too much

I have hope in my heart 💜 and love 💗 and I really believe that I will be ok and I will fall in love again... it’s not over yet

It would be great if I don’t run into him again... it’s a weird feeling because I get sad for him because I know that he is lonely but I’ll let him fight his own battles instead of fighting them for him