There are a lot of people around me who are, i'm sure, 10 times weirder than i am...but yet, they have somehow managed to deal with the societly and accept themselves as who they are + move on! The funny thing is that the society has also accepted them and they get along with one another just fine! And here I am, wondering how different is different to keep someone away from getting involved with the rest? What is the cause of isolation? Is it becaue of the difference or is it developed by something that is beyond one's imagination? What kind of boarders do I have to cross to find out the real problem and fix it?

Here's my heart u can take it....

It was late last night.
I was feeling something wasn't right.
There was nothing, not a soul in sight.
Only you.

So we walked along.
Though I knew that there was something wrong,
And the feeling hit me oh so strong,
About you.

Then you gazed up at me.
And the answer was plain to see.
As I saw the light in your eyes.
In your eyes.

Though we had a fling.
I just never would suspect a thing.
Till the little bell began to ring in my head.
In my head.

But I tried to run,
Though I knew it wouldn't help me now.
'Coz I couldn't ever love no one or so I say.
I say.

But my feelings for you,
Was just something I never knew.
Till I saw the light in your eyes.
In your eyes.
In your eyes.

But I love you best,
It's not something that I say in jest.
'Coz it's a different cut from all the rest in my eyes.
In my eyes.

And I learned all before.
But I won't do it anymore.
Can't you see the light in my eyes.
In my eyes.

Chihiro Yonekura

Change

I don't like to read poems anymore......

I chat less....actually haven't chatted in 2 days ...woohoo...

but.......

on the other hand.......

I've been shopping a lot more! .......

so.....I donnow if that's an improvement or not....well I guess it kinda is.....

keep up the good work :D......

oh and one more thing...

I don't like to write anything here anymore either...so if u see something now and it's gone later that's because I've erased it! ....it's just a temporary thing...... don't ask why!

Disconnected.......

Please try again later.....

با تو ‚ تا تو

ديروز چشمانت رنگی داشت كه درونم را به آتش می زد .
ديروز نگاهم در تو ترسی ايجاد می كرد .
ديروز لحظه ای ديدنت ، تمام خواسته ام بود .
ولی امروز چه راحت از كنار هم مي گذريم
عشق بهانه ای بود برای ادامه دادن به اين زندگی مسخره
بهانه ای کودکانه و شاید ... احمقانه
هنوز حضورت را در چشمهايم احساس می كنم.
هنوز حرفهايت در گوشهايم نجوا می كند.
هنوز در تنهايی ،
احساسی عجيبی به سراغم می آيد
ومرا با خود می برد .
تو را می بينم ، ودستت را كه به آرامی در دست ديگری فرو رفته ،
ولبخندت را - كه بر تمام وجودم لرزه می اندازد - به رايگان به او می دهی
لحظه ای مي خواهم بر گردم
و نگاهت كنم.
و به دوست داشتنهای دروغينت،
به لبخندهای ساختگيت،
به صورتت-كه درزير لايه های دروغ مخفيش كرده ای ـ
به تمام آنچه كه می توانستی بسازی وخراب كردی
بخندم،

http://www.iransong.com/g.htm?id=5091&title=Doozakhi

:(

I just realized how boring my weblog is....I'm never gonna write here again....unless..... I donnow

I just saw a great weblog...and I'm jealous..... I wish I could write like that..... :(

Should I tell you who she is?

hmm...

no.........

hmm...

ok

Maybe....

http://masseyjaan.blogspot.com

Ojeh SOGHOOT.....Don't Ask Why or How!

Keeping Track of My BEAUTIFUL MarX

Hameh Jooresho Daaram LOL

A+: 3

A: 1

A-: 4

B+: 1

B: 3

B-: 1

C+: 1

C: 2

C-: 1

Persuation......

always worx.....

unless........

u build a tall wall around u ........

so it can't get through

دورتر
دورتر از هميشه
با فاصله هاي نامنظم
مشبك ابر
همچون گربه
در هجوم لحظه هاي بارش
و باراني
كه مي بارد از نگاهم
بر بستر شب
و سرد مي گردد وجودم
از لحظه هاي گرم
در شنزارهای خيال
به تبسم ذهن رسيدم
با ناباوري بهت
به نگاه سبز چمن خيره شدم

در اعماق دره هاي نشسته به ظلمت
كور سوي چراغي است
در لحظه اي كه تاريكي
برودت ترس را
بارور مي كند
رشد آرمانهاي انساني من
نزديك به اوج بود
كه
به نهايت پوچي خويش رسيدم
در ظلمت
و اسطوره هاي تكرار
در هجرتي غمين بودند
كه تكامل دستهايم
نيمه تمام ماند
و در من
ريشه هاي تعجب
محكم شد
وقتي كه ماهيهاي آرام
در حوض منزوي
از شقاوت چنگالهاي تيز
نهراسيرند
چرا ؟
زيرا كه
پذيرفتند تسليم را
درافق درگاهي كه، به سياهي دوزخ
منتهيست

Cheghad man naaraahatammmmmmm :(

I'm in such a bad mood todayyyyyy
ba inke havaa aaftaabieh

nemidoonam cheraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

:(

az sob saat 7 bidar shodam hich kar nakardam
mikhastam assignmente frenchamo befrestam ke aslan hosele nadashtam anjam bedam..akhe moallememoon gofte bood send it to me before monday....asabam khoordeh ke dirooz anjaamesh nadaadam....do darsado nimeh nomre finalamo daashhhhhhht

alanam behem zang zadan goftan bia sare kar vali nemiram chon gharaareh yeh jaa dige beram....

aaaah aslan hoseleh nadaram BYE

Ride on - Through the night - Ride on
Ride on - Through the night - Ride on
There are visions, there are memories
There are echoes of thundering hooves
There are fires, there is laughter
There's the sound of a thousand voices

In the velvet of the darkness
By the silhouette of silent trees
They are watching, they are waiting
They are witnessing life's mysteries

Cascading stars on the slumbering hills
They are dancing as far as the sea
Riding o'er land, you can feel its gentle hand
Leading on to its destiny

Take me with you on this journey
Where the boundaries of time are now tossed
In cathedrals of the forest
In the words of the tongues now lost

Find the answers, ask the questions
Find the roots of an ancient tree
Take me dancing, take me singing
I'll ride on till the moon meets the sea

آيا شما كه صورتتان را
در سايه نقاب غم انگيز زندگي
مخفي نموده ايد
گاهي به اين حقيقت يأس آور انديشه ميكنيد
كه زنده هاي امروزي
چيزي به جز تفاله يك زنده نيستند ؟
گويي كه كودكي
در اولين تبسم خود پير گشته است
و قلب اين كتيبه مخدوش
كه در خطوط اصلي آن دست برده اند
به اعتبار سنگي خود ديگر احساس اعتماد نخواهد كرد

Yek Ghadam To Yek Ghadam Man.............

That's how it* should be

If u think that u are doing more than one step at a time u should know that u will never succeed... because all ur doing is giving urself false hope that SOMEDAY "TARAF" will do the same for u .......but that's not true... it won't happen.....and u will regret it ....

so do NOT lie to urself!!!

it = relationship, friendship, love

Yek Ghadameh Moorcheyi......

lol aakheyyyy yaadesh bekheyr bachegia too hayaat che baaziaayi mikardim.. ye ghadameh fili :D

vali man daaram yeh ghadameh moorcheyi var midaaram towards living in the real world.......
so i'm gonna stop with all the fantacies that did not come truuuuuue......well no wonder why..they were only fantacies!!!

i'm trying to promise myself to work harddd and get involved in the REAL WORLD.....and come out of my world :( ......... :( .................

we'll see how it goes.........

نه در قصه هاي مادر بزرگ ديدم

نه در خواب

كه روزي ساده مي‌كارم

بالهاي پروازم را

پشـت پرچينِ كوتاهِ نگاهِ كبوتري

بيگانه با خواب ها وُ بازي هاي ديروز

و تنها مي مانم با تصويري از پروازها

حالا مي فهمم كه آدمي را

آفريده‌اند

تا همبازي تقديرِ خويش باشد

از فراغ تو من میمیرم . میمیرم . از تو میخونم, در خیال تو من . میمونم . میدونم با تو میمونم

از دور حركت مي كنيم
تا به نزديك تو برسيم
تو اگر مانده باشي
تو اگر در خانه باشي
من فقط به خانه تو آمدم
تا بگويم
آواز را شنيدم
تمام راه
از تو مي خواستم
مرا باور كني
كه ساده هستم
تو رفته بودي
اكنون گفتم
كه تو هستي
تو اگر نبودي
نمي دانستم
كه مي توانم
باران را در غيبت تو
دوست بدارم

راستي
چگونه بايد تمام اين عقوبت را
به كسي ديگر نسبت داد
و خود آرام از اين خانه به كوچه رفت
صدا كرد
گفت : آيا شما مي دانستيد
من اگر سكوت را بشكنم
جبران لحظه هايي را گفته ام
كه هيچ يك از شما در آن حضور نداشتيد
اگر همه ي شما حضور داشتيد
تحمل من كم بود
مجبور بودم
همه ي شما را فقط با نام كوچكتان
صدا كنم

من از زمانی که قلب خود را گم کرده است میترسم
من از تصویر بیهودگی این همه دست
و از تجسم بیگانگی این همه صورت میترسم
من مثل دانش آموزی
که درس هندسه اش را
دیوانه وار دوست می دارد تنها هستم
و فکر میکنم...
و فکر میکنم...
و فکر میکنم...
و قلب باغچه در زیر آفتاب ورم کرده است
و ذهن باغچه دارد آرام آرام
از خاطرات سبز تهی میشود

logic / reason / contradiction

there is a logic behind everything...........but sometimes it's good and HEALTHY to be illogicallllll

for me......I always try to find reasons for everything that happens......even the way I feel........

For example, what's the logic behind crying? where is it gonna take me? let's say I have failed all my exams and I want to start crying for having ruined my life and future because of not studying....but what is the point of crying? I have to find a SOLUTION to this problem........cryin is gonna get me nowhere right?

I believe that we should fight with all the negativities....sadness, anger. etc.

So don't be upset about anything...ever...because everything happens for a reason :) :

ooni ke modda'e bood asheghete
toro too faaseleh haa tanhaa gozasht
bikhabar raft bikhabar rafto too in biraaheh haa
radde paasham vaase cheshmaat jaa nazaasht

mano har saanieh o jonooneh to
vaase man hamin khiaaletam basteh
bezaa jaade haa eshtebaa beran
maa ke dastemoon beh ham nemireseh.....

baa harireh pileh haayeh kaaghazi
vaaseh man jaddaro abrisham nakon
man be parvaaneh shodan nemiresam
hormate faaselamoono kam nakon

And All This Time....I've Been Wondering Why.....

chera baa baalaa raftaneh arzeshe yeh nafar arzeshe yeki digeh paayin miaad?

yani dar vaaghe' cheraa no ke oomad be baazaar kohne mishe del aazaar?

aslan emkaan daareh ke adam vaaseh hamishe no bemooneh?

cheraa oon kesaayi ke doost ziaad daaran vasashoon vojoodeh aadamaayeh jadid kam ahammiate?

va aayaa in chizeh khoobieh yaa na?

~*Az Mohabbat KhaarHaa Gol Mishavand*~

Fereidooneh Forooghi

So this is how the story goes.......

At First you are like ...ok ... this is weird...WTF........etc.

Then you get confused and try to find out the reason for ur confusion.........

You keep complaining to the others around you (& eventhough they get annoyed you don't stop urself from whining!!!)

Then you give up on that because u can't find an answer and no one can give you an answer

Then you try different things hoping that one of them will work and the confusion will stop....

But then you realize that these "different things" that you have tried have broadened you knowledge

So now you are still confused from stage 1 + there is a new confusion on top of that making a double-confu

Then u come to a point when you are like.......hmmm....there is nothing to be confused about.....

And that's the time when your mind and sould have given up trying and you go through a stage that is called "bluhoranda"

Then you become like ...hmmm... ok.....: :) :

Which one is more scary?

The Unknown?

Or ....(what's the opposite of unknown?)

"The Known"?

Man Aashegheh Sepideh Boodam AMMAA Beh Shab Residam.....

Wow......ki baladeh intori harf bezanehhhhh? :D

be naame aanke sharabe eshgh ra dar jaame derakhtane ashegh rikht

dar astaneye lahzeye joda i va doori baraye hamishe in neveshte ra taghdime vojoode sabzat mikonam

doost daram inghadr shab o shabnam barayat besorayam ta zendegiam be payan resad be yadegare dasthaaye mehrabanat ke manande nasime navazeshgari baraye derakhte zemestane baghcheye zendegiam , abri bahari be armaghan avard

roozi az roozhaye bahari khaateratat ra ba range sabz dar louhe delat hak mikonam va aan rabe golvaje haaye mohabbat azin mibandam va bar divar e kooche haaye cheshmanat kalameye eshghra minevisam ta har kas ke az aan kooche migozarad, bedanad ke aaberi az in kooche gozashteva aasheghe divar haaye namnaak o geli aan shode.

modati ast sang farsh haaye delam digar az ghadam haaye por mehre to khoshhal nemishavand va digar zarbe ahange por taraneye gaam haaye to ghasedak haaye kenar e jooye ra az khaab bidarnemikonad.

http://nothingwithoutu.persianblog.com/

صداي خش خش برگهاي خزوني روي گوشم ناله مي کرد
آسمون بغض شو تو پرده ابراي سياهش پاره مي کرد
رعد و برق نگاه شهر و با صداش خواب زده مي کرد
زمين از اين همه سنگيني بار بروي شونش گله ميکرد
همچنان پاي پياده فارغ از صداي خشم آسموني
بي خيال از ناله هاي و گله هاي برگهاي سبز خزوني
جاده هاي بي کسي رو گم مي کردنم آروم آروم
تن غربتو ميشستم زير قطره هاي با رون
من به ياد عطر بارون زده گلهاي پونه
ميکشيدم پاي خستمو تو جاده
به هواي بوي خونه
وقتي که صداي خونه، منو تا آخر جاده مي کشونه
اين سرابه توي جاده، که چشامو مي پوشونه

وای بر من گر تو آن گم کرده ام باشی
که بس دور است بین ما
که این سو
دستها خوشکیده
دل مرده
به ظاهر خنده ای بر لب
و گاهی حرفهای پیچ در پیچ
و هم هیچ
و گه گاهی و گه گاهی
دو خط شعری
که گویای همه چیز است و خود ناچیز
وای بر من
گر تو آن گم کرده ام باشی
که بس دور است بین ما
که آن سو که آن سو
نازنینی غنچه ای شاداب و
صدها آرزو بر دل
دلی گهواره عشقی
که چندی بیش نیست شاید
و از بازیچه بودن سخت بیزاریست
وای بر من
گر تو آن گم کرده ام باشی
که بس دور است بین ما
و عاشق گشتن و عاشق نمودن
سخت دشوار است

What life is all about.......

as long as u keep it even u'll be happy :)

: define even?

KHODAAYAA...KEH BOOD AAN KE TA'MEH MOHABBATAT RAA CHESHID VA JOZ TO KASI RAA AAREZOU KARD?

There's a lot more that I need to find out about this life and the planet

BRING IT ON

mitavaani to be man zendegaani bakhshi
yaa begiri az man aancheraa mibakhshi

and I get that! :)

THANK YOU

Doing the impossible......

I would like to say thanks to all the people out there who pushed me over the edge...

I certainly hope that you are happy with what I've become for I would have never had the courage to do it if it wasn't for the things you said and the things you did not say......

I would also like to thank all those whose absence played a huge role along the way......

And at last , I would like to congratulate myself for managing to fail in every single way possible!

NEVER thought that this day would come.

GOOD JOB & GOOD LUCK

EVERY END IS THE START OF A NEW BEGINNING AND I'M HERE BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN THAT

Unexpected!

The day before yesterday I was soooo happy that I don't have to go to work on Sunday ....I thought I'll study and maybe get a good mark on this stupid final...

But guess what?

That didn't happen!

I woke up at 11:30 and after spending 2 hours doin nothing I finally decided to get my *** out of the bed and go to the library to study....

I was out of the house by 2:20 ( that's when the bus was supposed to come) ...unlike what I had planned (which was to go to the library that's near my house) all of a sudden I decided to go to school......

I didn't feel like studying on the bus.. so I started reading a novel....continued reading the novel until 5:00 on my way back to home!

then I started watching a couple of movies......then did the "usual" until I finally fell sleep at around 3 in the morning!

woke up at 8:30.......went to school... this time i actually studied for what seemed to be an endless set of notes....

and the biggest accomplishment of the day was failing my final!

i'm not even sad .....

i'm totally getting used to this ... what was it called again? LIFE? :D

(but i gotta admit somethin... goin to school yesterday and not being able to study felt...hmm..weird)

F**** Everyone!

I multilovawl you ! :D

I
No
Longer
Believe
In
LOVE
/
True
LOVE

....

Mohr
Emzaa
ME

I believe it's possible to love...more than just one person.....
(However, I donnow if that's a good thing or a bad thing?????!!! )

So ladies and gentlemen....

I would like to introduce you to the new (soon to be popular) term.....

"Multilovawl"

Yaad Begir...Nesfeh TOEH!

I Love the spirit in this little MOJOOD! He clearly knows what he wants in life and is not willing to give it up under any circumstances....

Hey Lil guy...

U ma hero! ;)

(L)

Goosh Kon Baa Labeh Khaamoosh Sokhan Migooyam...Paasokham De Be Zabaani Ke Zabaaneh Mano Tost

گوش كن: اي نفس هاي سنگين
صد زبان با همه بي زباني ست-
آه، بشنو كه اينها نفس نيست،
ناله و شكوه و سرگراني ست
من ندانسته بودم- دريغ-
تا چه اندازه خودكام و پستم!
واي بر من، ببخشاي، يارب
كاين همه خودسر و خودپرستم!
نامه ام را به من بازده ... واي!...
آن چه خواندي به نسيان سپارش:
گفتمت دوست دارم؟ ندارم!
اين دروغ است... باور مدارش!

circle of life

From the day we arrive on the planet
And blinking, step into the sun
There's more to be seen than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done
Some say eat or be eaten
Some say live and let live
But all are agreed as they join the stampede
You should never take more than you give
In the circle of life
It's the wheel of fortune
It's the leap of faith
It's the band of hope
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the circle, the circle of life

Some of us fall by the wayside
And some of us soar to the stars
And some of us sail through our troubles
And some have to live with the scars
There's far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high through the sapphire sky

Keeps great and small on the endless round

miram madrese ...

miram madrese...

jibaam pore fandogho peste

koochoolooye man

nakhori ghosse

jibaam pore fandogho peste

yaadesh bekheyr oon moghe ha vaaghean baa ye mosht fandogho peste mitoonestan kharemoon konan..vali alaan chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii?

SFA

S = stupid
F= f word
A = a word

I'm angrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry

I was happy yesterday....but not anymore!

SFA's

taa aayeneh raftam ke begiram khabar az khod

didam ke dar aan aayeneh am joz to* kasi nist

man dar peyeh khisham be to barmikhoram ammaa

dar to shodeh am gom..beh man dastresi NIST

* to = me!

I'm Happyyy

Khoshhaalam

Soghooteh Yek Fereshteh

Hads bezanid in fereshte ki bid? ;)

I'm sure a lot of people have been at stage 3 at some point in their lives and have managed to get up and start over again..... it doesn't matter if you have been there or not ...what matters is the amount of time it takes one to realize that he/she must get up and try again.

Next time don't just stand there and let the snakes bite u ...fight back ... or change your path... :)

Just Because I use the purple color a lot doesn't mean that I like it!

عجب حکایتی شده

فکر تو عادتی شده

که از سرم نمیره

که از سرم نمیره

Don't forget to write it down.....

This is just a little note that I'd like to make to myself so I won't forget ... but it's actually not worth reading.........

So finally after two whole monthes ( or was it more?) ... I see * again......

hi how are u? long time no see... bluh bluh bluh......

acting cool like nothing has happened........

telling me about what's going on in * life .......bluh bluh bluh.....

and in the end.... " khob ishalla az in be ba'd bishtar bebinimetoon".....

as * is walking away I realize that .....2 monthes ago...... I'd managed to make maybe one of the few/only RIGHT decisions of my life....

Conclusion:

just because u miss them doesn't mean that you actually ... hmmm...

i donnow... i was trying to make a point but can not put it into words .. so I'll just leave it as that :D

*~ Doost Aanast Ke Girad Dasteh Doust Dar Parishan Haalio Darmaandegi ~*

Sometimes I get lost between maturity and immaturity......

I actually like acting like an immature person... it's really fun.... but no matter how hard I try... in the end I find the boring "mature me" ...

and that is what I would like to call the sad reality!

Vaghte Raftanast

Harf Haayeh Maa Hanooz Naa Tamaam

Taa Negaah Mikoni Vaghte Raftan Ast

Baaz Ham Hamaan Hekaayateh Hamishegi

Pish Az Inkeh Baakhabar Shavi...Lahzeyeh Azimate To Naagozir Mishavad

Ey Darigho Hasrateh Hamishegi

Naagahaan Cheghadr Zood Dir Mishavad........

Esm Haayeh Khoda

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Key March tamoom shod man nafahmidammmm?

And most important of alll..key saataro jolo keshidan? (last night! oh ok)

Aaaaaaa

I can't believe it

I feel like I'm not here!....

Where am I?

baba bargard dige .. emtehana dare shoroo mishe :D

MAN HAMOONAM KEH YEH ROOOOOZ MIKHASTAM DARYA BESHAM .......MIKHASTAM BOZORGTARINNN DARYAYEH DONYA BESHAM

ميون يه دشت لخت زير خورشيد كوير

مونده يك مرداب پير توی دست خاك اسير

منم اون مرداب پير از همه دنيا جدام

داغ خورشيد به تنم زنجير زمين به پام

من همونم كه يه روز مي خواستم دريا بشم

مي خواستم بزرگترين درياي دنيا بشم

آرزو داشتم برم تا به دريا برسم

شبو آتيش بزنم تا به فردا برسم

اولش چشمه بودم زير آسمون پير

اما از بخت سيام راهم افتاد به كوير

چشم من به اونجا بود پشت اون كوه بلند

اما دست سرنوشت سر رام يه چاله كند

توی چاله افتادم خاك منو زندوني كرد

آسمونم نباريد اونم سرگروني كرد

حالا يه مرداب شدم يه اسير نيمه جون

يه طرف ميرم تو خاك يه طرف به آسمون

خورشيد از اون بالاها زمينم از اين پايين

هي بخارم مي كنن زندگيم شده همين

با چشام مردنمو دارم اينجا مي بينم

سرنوشتم همينه من اسير زمينم

هيچی باقی نيست ازم لحظه های آخره

خاك تشنه همينم داره همراش می بره

خشك ميشم تموم ميشم فردا كه خورشيد مياد

شن جامو پر می كنه كه مياره دست باد

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Mesleh Sarataan Mimooneh.......

Haalaa to hey begoo eshgaal nadaare..farda......fardaa khoob mishe........

Vali Taa az rishe nakanish behtar nemishe ke hichi badtaram mishe......

HALA TO HEY BEGOO FARDA ..........

ok farda........ :D

vaay.....az roo am ke nemiri!

aakhe man chetori? az koja shoroo konam?