Forbidden fruit

In love?

Can't really say that... maybe it's mostly lust

I enjoy my every minute with him... I just want to melt in his arms and not let go... he is my forbidden fruit... the one that most people would probably warn me agaist... he is tall, handsome, charming with the best voice in the world... he makes me feel so weak when I am around him... I wish I could be more mature... I wish I could do the right thing...

The first kiss is fun... but also like the death sentence... after that you will not be the same... and your relationship will not be the same...

I have to figure something out before this ship sinks...

He is my forbidden fruit❤️

Death...

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life... I was so stressed out that I couldn't sleep... I hope tonight will not be the same... I was so stressed that my heart was in pain when I woke up at 4 am and could not fall back into sleep... it's funny because you'd think attending these workshops and positive thinking would help in a situation like this... but no... felt as dead and numb as someone whi's veen run over by s truck... I hope to never experience this feeling again but that's what I said last time...

Thank you god for everything ❤️