High expectations!

From everyone.......

Everywhere i go.. every way I look....... there are people who are expecting something from me

My teachers expect me to be ontime, study, and hand in all the assignments and write all the tests

Some people expect me to get good marks..... they say " we did it.... and back then we did ... + ... + ... " too....... but you ........your job is to study and that's it....... why aren't you getting good marks....... we're so dissappointed......

"Oh no ****... but you studied so hard...... why didn't you get a better mark? huh?"

The bus driver....... tells me ...... "you are a university student....... why can't you give people right directions......"

@ work...... my managers expect me to give them full time availability and always be ontime and not take any days off.......

and finally, and the worst of all...... = ME! ....... I try to push myself to work harder and harder..... yes I can do it ... I know I can........ That's what I tell myself...... but the results are verrrry different........

I want to stop... right now....... I want to make my own choices........ not go to work... not go to school... GO SHOPPING ... go to a park ....... go to the THAI restaurant and eat chinese food.....I haven't been out in 3 monthes....... :(...... how sad is that? and I'm not even doing well at school.... satisfaction= 0 .........

"sigh"

There is a big difference between what you WANT and what you NEED

Havaa mikhaam .. havaaaaa mikhaam.. havaayeh taazeyeh bahaaaaaar
Eshgh Mikhaam... Eshghhhhhh Mikhaaaaaaam... Delhoreyeh Didaneh Yaaaaaaar...

Havaa Mikhaaam.... Havaaaaaaa Mikhaam... Havaayeh Taazeyeh yeh daasttttttt...
Eshgh Mikhaaaaaaaaam.. Eshgh Mikhaam... Taa Begireeeeh Dastaamo Mastttttt

Baraa Chi har vaght nazdikeh emtehaanaa mishe aadam havas mikone ke aashegh she?
Shayad faghat man intoriam.......
Paarsaal keh yehoyi aasheghe yeh pesareh CHINI shodamm...

I donnow how that happened! But the feeling of a need to love someone wasn't logical in the first place che berese be inke asheghe yeh pesar chini shodanam logical baasheeeee

Have you ever heard the quote that says: " When everything else fails, read the instructions"

Well... everything else has faild..... but i don't see any instructions :( chi kaar konam khob ? eeeeeee taghsire man naboooooooooooood........ i just can't stop to think what's right and what's not...... so i'm just going with the flow... i know it's bad... but there's nothing i can do about it :(

If you could save someone's life by not going to school...... would you do it?

Don't think too hard........


you are making that choice everyday


you could be working at..... lets say a restaurant....... and be making a minimum wage of maybe 8 $ / hr..... and then give that money to the ones who need it......

but you chose not to......

and you're going to choose not to.......

maybe in the future.....

but that will be too late......

thousands of them are dying everyday!

I'm so cold :(

fekr konam shoofajemoon kharab shodeh

:(

i'm tired of complaining!

"sigh"

What does it take to drop off from someone's eye?

You wouldn't understand the meaning of the title if you can't translate it into farsi

Anyways.. the answer is Not much at all!

It can be a word, a sentence, or an action/reaction in a certain situation.

What does it take to gain back the trust or... it's not a trust.... it's changing people's point of view back to what it was before you do what was done...

Hmmmmm... the only hope is to let time take care of it!

But the thing is that our minds work the opposite of what we want..... the more you want to forget the more you will remember.....

Does that make sense?

Of course it does!

Akhtahom Ghesh Mal Mort Nad Im Chak Inm

Ekhto Paz De Falkon Nei Ze Talsha Nam Ek Mort Kash Pa Lehp Men Ned

Yeh harfi bood beyne khodamo khodam...

Don't even try to figure it out!

I'm creating my own language.....

It's obvious that there's something different so I might as well create a different language..... you are more than welcome to pay $300 for taking the course and then fail......sorry there's no logic into it ;)

Happy Happy Happy

Don't ask me why...

Today was no different than yesterday......it was as bad as the day before.. maybe even worse

But I'm happpppppy.....

It's a great feeling to feel great!

I might know why...... because I went to school at 7 ...... when it was quiet quite and darkkk....

So?....... I'm gonna tell you the big secret.......

At that time in the morning god can give you more love cause less people are disturbing "him"

that's such a stupid thing to say........ isn't it?

What about those people who are awake at that time in other places such as NZ/Australia etc.?

Well..... don't argue with me!

:):):):):):):)

قسمت تو همین بوده که بر سرت گذشته
نکن گلایه از فلک
این کار سرنوشته
عمر کمه صفا کن
رنج و غمو رها کن
اگه نباشه دریا
به قطره اکتفا کن
زندگی شاد است ,غمگینش مکن
با غمه بیهوده تو سنگینش مکن
قلبه چون آیینه ات را صاف کن
با دو رنگیها تو رنگینش مکن
عمر گران می گذرد
خواهی نخواهی
سعی بر آن کن نرود رو به تباهی
مطلب دل را طلب از سوی خدا کن
زان که بود رحمت او، لایتناهی

A silent SCREAM

searchin for some sanity inside my head.......cant find nothing..... yes that's a double negative sentence .. what u gonna do about it huh?

if you would like to reach the real me try to go a few years back....

maybe not even then

totallllllllllly lost .................................

i'm goin to stop talking now and end this with a .

You will always be in my heart

: A. Sh.

خوابيدي بدون لالايي و قصه
بگير آسوده بخواب بي درد و غصه
ديگه كابوس زمستون نمي بيني
توي خواب گلهاي حسرت نمي چيني
ديگه خورشيد چهرتو نمي سوزونه
جاي سيلي يا يه باد روش نمي مونه
ديگه بيدار نمي شي با نگروني
يا با ترديد كه بري يا كه بموني
رفتي و آدمكا رو جا گذاشتي
قانون جنگل رو زير پا گذاشتي
اينجا قهرن سينه ها با مهربوني
تو تو جنگل نمي تونستي بموني
دلتو بردي با خود به جاي ديگه
اونجا كه خدا برات لالايي ميگه
ميدونم ميبينمت يه روز دوباره
توي دنيايي كه آدمك نداره

:(

EF.. You.... See.... Key

I'm sick again.. for the third time in the last two monthes...stupid virus!

Lost 4 KG in the last month!

Lost my bus pass...

Almost lost my calculator...

Lost my wallet and found it after 3 weeks ( after going through a lot of stress at a bad time)

and...

something good...?...?

let me think......

passing my courses.... that must be good!!!!

..............
.......
............

can't figure out what i'm doing wrong


100% input... no output... that's kind of discouraging isn't it?

Can you see this up there? ( I know that you don't have a computer so here.. go ahead and use mine ;) )

Need some help over here.. plz..

ageh vaght kardi ... beh gholeh shaaer... nazari beh haaleh maa kon ... mano az oon baalaa negaa kon.... laa laa laay laay laa laa laay laayyyy....

koja boodam.. oh yea... and fix this! that's an order ....... sorry...... yani lotfan khaaheshan .... fadaat sham.. che mehrabooni.. jigilimigili bigili......:")

(going crazy in every single possible way)

چه باید کرد ، چه باید کرد....چه باید دید ، چه باید گفت

هر منزل این راه بیابان هلاک است
هر چشمه سرابیست که بر سینه خاک است
در سایه هر سنگ اگر گل به زمین است
نقش تن ماریست که در خواب کمین است
در هر قدمت خار هر شاخه سر دار
در هر نفس آزار هر ثانیه صد بار
گفتم که عطش می کشدم در تب صحرا
گفتی که مجوی آب و عطش باش سراپا
گفتم که نشانم بده گر چمشه ای انجا ست
گفتی چو شدی تشنه ترین قلب تو دریاست
گفتم که در این راه کو نقطه ی آغاز
گفتی که تویی تو خود پاسخ این راز
اردلان سرافراز

EF.......

Yehoi delam khast be doraneh bachegim bargardam

vaghti kelas dovvom boodam.... kheyli oon moghe haa aadameh baahaali boodam.... khodam "role model" e khodam boodam.. behtarineh behtarin haa.....the best of the best of the best of the best

vali al'aaaaan..... chi begam ke nagoftanesh behtareh...

mais now estoy muy ***

eeeeee.... aslan asle matlabo yadam raft.... havas kardam beram mosaferat .. beh shomaal... cheghad adam vaghti bachas khialesh raahateh... chon az in hameh badbakhtieh donya khabar nadaareh.....

Khoshaa beh haalat ey roostayi

Che shaado khorram che baa safaayi

Dar shahre maa nist joz doodeh maashin

Delam gerefte az aano az in

Ey kaash man ham parandeh boodam

Baa shaademaani par migoshoodam

Miraftam az shahr be roostayi

Aanjaa ke daarad aabo havaayi

"Ja'fare Ebraahimi... Shaahed"

من دلم را در هجوم آرزو گم کرده ام

عشق را در کوچه های جستجو گم کرده ام

در بیابانهای فکر خویش دنبال سراب

آب اگر پیدا نکردم . آبرو گم کرده ام

گریه را در پیچ و خمهای گلو گم کرده ام

مرغ خونآلوده اندیشه را پر داده ام

خویش را در تنگنای خلق و خو گم کرده ام

قهر را بر پیکر بیداد اگر کوبیده ام

مهر را هنگام بحث و گفتگو گم کرده ام

گریه را در پیچ و خمهای گلو گم کرده ام

کرده ام بر خود حرام . این یک دو روز عمر را

سادگی را در حریم رنگ و بو گم کرده ام

زیر دست و پای غم با اشک پیمان بسته ام

گریه را در پیچ و خمهای گلو گم کرده ام

اندکی کالای آرامش در این بازار نیست

زندگی را در بساط های و هوی گم کرده ام

می سکوت و خلوت و خشم و خموشی مینهد

من صدایم را به گلبانگ سبو گم کرده ام

گریه را در پیچ و خمهای گلو گم کرده ام

M-J-

امشب در سر شوري دارم

امشب در دل نــوري دارم

باز امشب در اوج آسـمانم

رازي بـاشـــد بـا ستارگانم

امشب يک سر شوق وشورم

از ايـن عــالــم گــويــي دورم

از شـادي پـر گـيرم کـه رسـم بـه فلک

سرود هستي خوانم در بر حور و ملک

در آسمان ها غوغا فکنم

سبو بريزم ساغر شکنم

امشب يک سر شوق وشورم

از ايـن عــالــم گــويــي دورم

با ماه و پـرويـن سخني گويم

وز روي مه خـود اثـري جويـم

جان يابم زين شبها

مـاه و زهـره را بــه طـرب آرم

از خود بي خبرم ز شعف دارم

نغمه اي بر لب ها

امشب يک سر شوق وشورم

از ايـن عــالــم گــويــي دورم

S.