Luckily or unluckily?

 The wait was shorter thank anticipated. That time of the month started 3-4 days before I expected so it left no questions. On the other hand, the start of that time of the month was matched with the first day of my cold, or whatever this is. It’s seems to be a minor cold but I won’t know for sure as I can’t get tested. That’s how the new year will start. However, I am still grateful for being healthy enough 💞 thinking about next year this time is nerve racking but it’s exciting to know that there is so much on the way… I’m trying to take it one day at a time

Happy new year! 

Journalling?

 Anyway, I laugh at my thoughts so I thought I should share them here. 

I was really thinking about getting a preg test today as I was spotting and associated that with pregnancy. But then I decided not to do it because who knows how accurate these things are before missing your . Anyway?

The funny part is how I’m looking for “signs”… it could be bloating, over eating, drinking, digesting and I wonder ooo maybe I’m cramping which is another sign of pregnancy 😄

It’s supposed to be that time of the month in a week or so so I will let the process unfold as it should and try my best to not spend hours and hours thinking about it. It can be overwhelming…

Journeyeh maadar shodan

 I must say that it’s been interesting so far. It started with no pressure or thought given. The first time we tried I thought I should be pregnant. I took a pregnancy test a few days before the . And it was negative. This is our third month. I saw a few spots today that made me angry at the beginning thinking I may be getting my . Way early. But then I thought could it be a sign of pregnancy? And googled it and confirmation bias kicked in. That put a smile on my face. Not sure what will happen in a week but for today I am happy :) 

Merry Christmas!