Dream BIG

khodaayaa.......... yani misheh?
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at the moment it seems SO FAR out of reach........ yet there's only a few more months left............ I will know IT before the end of this year.......... that's exciting.......

a lot of things are exciting in my life these days........ I really shouldn't complain......... I've got everything that I wanted........ specially the big ones....... things have kinda gathered together to make things work for me.....


so other than the general feeling of emptiness everything else is good.......

va vaaghenama this time:

MAN DIGE MONTAZEREH HICHKASI NISTAM KE BIAAD

And I think to myself.........

What a wonderful world!

This was the title I wanted to use 2-3 days ago when I was for some reason happy

But now.......... again the point is to work and squeeze in the other process in between.......

I just said something really bad to AH and he got upset....... I feel kinda guilty but I was also tired of pretending...... recently I had tried talking to him because I felt bad for him since he's all alone and stuff..... then I realized I might be leading him on....... but not just that...... I did not enjoy talking to him anymore...... what's the point of just chatting about the same things everyday? So he left me a few offline msgs and i didnt reply.......and then i kidna told him that YES I DID SEE UR MSG BUT DID NOT REPLY ....... which obviously made him upset........ but these kinda things are really too complicated to explain........ so..... now I've just apologized and left after he asked me to pleasae stop talking (in other words shut up) ........ will i ever talk to him again? maybe.......

Naagahaan che zood dir mishavad.........

I finally heard the words........... is this done too?

Is this what I do? Talk and talk until I hear the words and then leave? Or do I let those meaningless words get into me and act so awkward until he runs away? Which one is it?

I think I definately do get confused and make everything seem so awkward because of my lack of experience....which eventually makes me so tired of myself and the awkwardness that results in an end....... and a new beginning....... and the story goes on.........

(Emrooz too fekram in ahangeh "man digeh montazereh hich kasi nistam ke biad bood" ..... and this is the song that I'm going to stick with for a while!)

The storm's gone........

yay! :D

F*ck this life!!!

Maybe i dont entirely mean what i said above.....and excuse me for using the f word.........but there is no other way to express my frustration!

Another storm.....or so it seems from what I witnessed tonight.......I was away again for one night and this is what I see when I come back?!!! I guess I have to watch them 24/7 when they're under the same roof to make sure nothing happens....

I'm really tired of complaining about this matter every once in a while.........but it is a big part of my life and kinda hard to ignore

Anyways...........everything else is fine..... :)