Last day of the year…

 I can’t say that today is the worst last day of the year. But I can say, with certainty, that tomorrow is the worst first day of the year in the past 36 years of my life.

I have been so emotional. I am trying my best to be positive because today is one of the best last days of the year. I get to spend it with my family.

The thing is that I don’t want to be lying to myself and pretending. However, these two days together represent life in general which is full of ups and downs.

On Dec 28th, when it happened and I had to say goodbye to the best thing in my life that brought me the greatest joy, I tried to stay strong and be thankful that it happened quickly. However, yesterday I realized that it’s not over.

I know that someday I’ll look at it with a smile. But for now, I’m just scared. This will teach me to be resilient and not give up. I hope and pray that next year on the last day of the year I will have better news for you.

For now, I just want to thank god for everything.