The meaning of love....

When you love someone, you'd do anything
You do all the crazy things that you can't explain
You shoot the moon, put out the sun...when you love someone

You'll deny the truth, believe a lie
There'll be times that you'll believe you can really fly
But your lonely nights have just begun, when you love someone

When you love someone, you'll feel it deep inside
And nothing else can ever change your mind
When you want someone, when you need someone...when you love someone...

When you love someone, you'll sacrifice
Give it everything you got and you won't think twice
You'll risk it all, no matter what may come
When you love someone

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So this is it...... this is what love is..... as crazy as it is this is love...... you can't help yourself..... no matter what happens or what they do you'll love them anyways....... and it's really f*ed up!

As soon as you hear their voice you want to help them..... you can't let go of them.... if they come back you'll take them...... even if they have hurt you...... you tell yourself that they didn't mean to...... you pick up the pieces and try......and try......and try.....

You can't help yourself....... that's the worst part...... you can't help but to love them.......

Khodaya shokret.....

Beh khatereh hameh chi....... nemidoonam chera sarma khordam.......vali everything else is perfect.... even the weather is perfect ..... I love you.....thank you

I'm thankful for......

having met so many good people........ I love all my friends....... well they're not really my friends caz I've known them for less than 2 months but I really like them so much.......they're awsome.......easy to talk to.........and all of that.......all guys ........ or 9 guys and a girl...... love them all.......and I really think that I'm gonna miss them beieve it or not :)

p.s. I think I'm becoming more loving as its getting closer to the "date"

p.s. I really like one of the 9 guys A LOT ..... he's soooooo cute .... but o well.... I'm leaving... :)

I've learned that.....

In life you have to either be neutral or make other people happy....


If I wake up in the morning and am in a bad mood that does not mean that I can treat people like sh*t.... some people do that....... but I'm not one of them

I either act in a way that doesnt make the person that I'm interacting with unhappy OR I treat them in a way that will make them laugh and hopefully if they're having a bad day it will turn it around.......and that's it

I dont understand why people don't get that....... If ur upset at something or whatever don't transfer that negativity to others for god's sake!!!! jeeeez

A letter to him.....

I live a simple life......translation: there's not much drama in my life on an everyday basis.......

I can not handle nor need to deal with things that are so unpredictable

Even if it brings the best out of me when it's present, I do not want to go through all the torture trying to figure out the answers to my WHYs all by myself......

I'd rather have a normal steady life than a high pick of happiness and then a drop for a long period of time......

I can't deal with people that I can't trust....

It's funny how still at the end of it I'm afraid that he'd think that I didn't care...... because I did care.......I did care a lot....... and I'm sure he knew ...... It's just hard to believe that he knew how much I cared and chose to ignore me......

Vaghteh raftan baaz gooyam kam nahaadam kam neshastam......this is what he said about his last gf...... and it kinda stayed with me......

My brain simply gives an ERROR when I try to put the He knew that I cared a lot + He decided to ignore me together.....

I guess if I were to tell my story to an outsider they would say "snap out of it...... he doesn't care AT ALL" ...... all the signs say that he doesnt ....... so WTF is wrong with me?

VERDICT: Ignore him ..... completely...... or if you do meet someday..... be as cold as ice :)

I'm strong......

I should say that I'm proud of myself for being strong..... god knows how much I want to talk to him but I've ignored him for the past little while and that's what I intend to do......

I should learn that the temporary pleasure that I get from talking to him is not worth the months of confusion that I get afterwards because of his strange behaviour

REMEMBER THAT

Still trying to move on.....

It's really hard when someone that you like breaks your heart....... it's hard when they do something so unpredictable that makes you question everything that you have always believed in...... it's hard to make yourself believe that everything that you feel for them has to go away because they are in a way dangerous because they can drag you down while they're still in a state of confusion about their own life

Translation: I have a hard time getting over this..... 1) As you all know I like him a lot 2) He decided to ignore me for a whole month..... before that he decided to ignore my letter and the blog I had made for him

Conclusion: Having a hard time convincing myself that he really doesn't care. Even though he always says that he does...... he says that he cares..... he says that our friendship means something to him........ but his actions have proved otherwise....... and I have to get that in my head......... I think I should start repeating it to my self "VJ doesn't care about me. VJ is in love with someone else. It's dangerous to get close to VJ. It's better to avoid him than to meet him."

My dillema is this: say I go there. Say I meet him. Knowing that he's dangerous and has the potential to show care and suddenly stop what should I do to prevent myself from getting hurt?

That is the question. I'm scared of him.......