Frustrated

I think this is the first night that I havent talked to him... Or I shd say I fidnt hear from him... Im mostly sad... And unhappy w myself for getting sad... And frustrated for not knowing what to do... Anyway... I am so happy and thankful and I send him love and I am sure that he will come around tomorrow

Kalaafeh

I'm pretty sure thats how I feel... I mean Im doing my own thing and thats really good but i dont know if Im supposed to do something or just sit back and relax... Well I miss him... No denial in that

In love....

I can't possibly begin to describe the feeling.... That's how I know it's love. It's ok to be vulnerable sometimes

Indifferent

I am not feeling that great.... Stressed out abt tmrw for no reason ... Tmrw ill b happy

The problem is that there are too many rules...

Dont tell him u like him/miss him he'll run away
Dont buy him gifts
Dont go out of your way to help him...

But isnt that what love is all about? To put his needs first? To love him more than you love yourself? I used to think that's love but not anymore... U have to love yourself more ... Period

Letting go of my fear...

Khodaavandaa aaraameshi ataa farmaa taa bepaziram aancheraa ke nemitavaanam taghir daham, taghir daham aancheraa ke mitavaanam, va inkeh tafaavote in do raa bedaanam

I'm glad that I'm going to see him tomorrow or the day after... I think that'll answer some of my questions... I miss him but I don't want to tell him...

What you focus on expands...

If u say u can't u can't ... If u say u can u can.... I have hope... I havnt been this sad in a long time but I have hope... I will fix this because I can... And I will! :)

Mind blowing...

At this moment that I 'm writing this I feel worried and scared.... Friday was an amazing day... Every moment of it was amazing because I was with him and he is amazing! What happened at the end of the night worries me... I'm trying to check for the source... I used to be better.... I dont know what's wrong... All I know is that I like him and it drives me crazy when he doesnt msg me... :( but its ok... I dont want to get to attached to him... I need to live my life and have him as part of it... Khodaayaa shokret... I'm so thankful for having met him.... :) i. Will be thankful regardless of what happens next

I feel amaziiiiinnnngggg

I have not felt so happy in a loooooonnnng time! I cant stop smiling....  I think Ive never been this happy! Seriously.... Im so thankful to god for helping me make amazing choices! Az khoshhali mikhaam daad bezanammm