That's right!
I'm not going anymore........ go ahead and call me crazy! But wait...... I'm not crazy.......
I'm taking a risk....... for the first time in my life I'm taking a risk!
I know that this doesn't just affect me...... the manager who hired me and trusted in me is going to be very mad........ I haven't contacted him yet.... but will....... first thought about calling..... but not sure if I have the courage to do it.......
Up until this morning I had my moments of doubt wondering why I'm going......
Now I'm wondering why I'm staying.....
I guess I'm just the type of person who will never be happy regardless......
Which takes me to the conclusion that I had come to a long time ago: I need to see a counselor!
Anyways........I'm so scared of e-mailing him.......he's been so nice to me....... hate to make him mad........
But I'll do it.......
And hopefully I'll get the job......
Oh...... by the way.......if you're still reading, the reason why I made this decision is because my manager told me that there'll be an internal position for the job that I've been waiting for since I started posted within the next 1-2 weeks..... and that's for sure!
Must be patient.......
Tanhaa to raa miparastam va tanha az to yaari mikhaaham........
You know what I mean.......
Please make me be happy with my decision....... please let this be the right decision.......... which I already think it is..........because I had asked you to help me make the right choice........ thank you....... so thankful..........still in shock........... SO THANKFUL though.........