Az haaleh alaanam napors...

Well it's passed 1 am so I dont know why I am still up... Last year at this time I was at a bad place emotionally... I am still sometimes grieving over my loss... Loss of the man I loved... He made me so happy... His presence made me so happy... The only guy that I was intimate with and wanted to be intimate with... The first guy that I saw a future with... The first guy that I could see my children with.. The first guy that I was in denial with... The firat guy that I was blind with... The first guy who would've destroyed my life if I stayed with... There's such a thin line between love and hate... It's only around "that time of the month" that I go this deep and allow myself to think about it... Thank god that I never became pregnant with him....

Sad

another break up... Another heart break

As usual, I know I did the right thing

But I miss him... I really wanted him to be the one. Why is he not over his x yet? Why can't I be in a normal relationship?

I feel sad now... I have a headache because I cried... But I'll be ok :)

I will be in a happy and healthy relationship by June 1, 2017 ❤️