Our fears...

So I have started dating this Russian guy who is a funny guy and I really enjoy spending time with him... he makes me laugh and he is kind... but since it's just the beginning I don't know if he is doing it just to get into my pants or he is actually this nice...

I like how real he is... he says things that he wants without worries... so maybe that means that what he does is genuine... because for example when I talk about money he said that he prefers to split the bill at times... I don't know why I am so sensitive about this... my gut feeling tells me that I shouldn't be ok with it... anyway... that's my struggle these days... otherwise all is ok...

it's funny that I brought up the baby subject with him ... and he said he doesn't want babies any time soon.... and that almost made me want to break up with him... but for now I have decided no to...

I'm very busy these days with L&A and everything else in life... no more partying for me for a while... need to study for FRM... that's it for now...

In order to succeed...

Sometimes you must not be ok with things that happen to you or with what you have... Yes, we are children of god and god loves us all BUT nothing will change as long as we are ok with it

Perfection..

I think I am pretty darn cute and if anyone really paid attention to me and the things I do they would no doubt fall in love with me... I think most people are too scared to believe what they see because they think there is no such a thing as "perfect"

On another note, I think I have a crush on 3-4 people these days which makes my life entertaining... One of which I am dating so there is not much I can complain about... Really thankful


I believe it's been exactly one year since my heart was broken into pieces... I am 85% fine... Trying to figure out how to put an end to it...

Delam gerefteh ast...

Bar aan nafas keh bemiram
Dar arezouyeh to baasham
Beh aan omid daham jaan
Ke khaake pooyeh to baasham
Keh khaakeh pooyeh to baasham

Golem behesht najooyam
Zeh dasteh saaghieh rezvaan
Maraa beh baadeh cheh haajat
Keh masteh rooyeh to baasham
Keh masteh rooyeh to baasham

Beh vaghteh sobheh ghiaamat
Keh sar zeh khaak bar aaram
Beh jostojooyeh to khizam
Dar arezouyeh to baasham

First date....

And I want all my first dates to be as amazing as my first date with this guy...