Mature “love”?

I’m kind of speechless. I seriously think that every time I see him I like him a little more. He is so good at expressing  himself and his feelings! I am just going with the flow and trying to be as authentic as I can. I don’t over analyze or overthink.

It’s unlike my feelings in the past... I can’t say I am over the moon excited and count down the minutes to see him next. But I can say that I am happy and look forward to seeing him every time we make plans. I can’t say that I want to be with him all the time because I feel like I also need my space. Maybe that’s because we are too “engaged” which I actually love every time we are together... but maybe I want some time to myself... not sure... still figuring it out :)

I’m happy:)

Love

Love is a funny thing... I have realized that it grows on its own, it has a mind of its own, and it’s not conditional. Love is love. It’s simple. It comes from a goof place. It comes from kibdness. It grows from kindness. It’s real. It feels real.

There are people in this world that I love. I am lucky to feel this way for them. Some of them are people that I don’t even know so well. Maybe that’s the reason I love them.

I try not to judge people. But sometimes I do. It means I have some growing up to do. Most of it comes from a gut feeling. Some people have told me crazy stories like having gone to the prison and I didn’t judge them. And some have said something small that they did and I have judged them.

Anyway... I’m very busy at work these days but also consumed with the reality of life. I feel at ease when I am with him and I enjoy spending my time with him. But lovehas not been created yet.... we haven’t even had ... yet. Which makes me wonder why... reminds me of the challenges of adulthood ... but I have decided to not overthink it

I have been distracted by a lot of news about people and tbeir sickness... which has made me sad...

We live in a complicated world... and I want to make sure that I do my part in being kind and loving to all those around me...

Ps

just a quick update on my relationship

I am going to his moms place and sleeping over on Saturday night. I can’t say that I have ever felt this way before. It’s not the crazy passionate love that I am used to. But I do like him.

Grateful

so grateful... although I was sick last week and I still can’t work out I am grateful that I live in a country where I can go to the doctor and get treated

I want to apologize for not eating at home and eating out too much

I want to apologize to my body for not taking things more seriously such as sleeping

Tomorrow is going to be a new day and we are going to do better