And he came back after she had finally put the last pieces of her heart together.......
This morning I woke up with a smile on my face......... happy that I hadn't deleted him the night before......... he has no obligation towards me ........ nothing whatsoever........... so what was I getting upset about anyways? well, why am I lying to myself? I know exactly what it is.......
When we started talking on the phone about 2-3 weeks ago I decided to really consider him a friend and not talk to him so much (maybe once a week) .... or even less! But then he messaged me complaining why I hadn't been calling him etc ........saying if I'm not interested in talking to him I should let him know so he won't bother caring etc......... so I called him.......... but then he started messaging me almost everyday..... and calling me! so I thought ok......... maybe he wants to start something more than a friendship......... and since I'm crazy about this guy I decided to let go of my strong walls and started texting him and calling him myself ....... only to see that he stopped responding ......... like when I msged him he never replied........ a recent example is from this morning where he messaged me back because I sent him a txt msg last night with a sad face....... he msged me this morning asking about what's wrong........ and I just told him about the problems that I'd run into with school (even though the sad face was actually because of the fact that he'd ignored me!!!) .......anyways....... he hasnt msged me back since 9 in the morning ...... but this time I don't care........ I should learn from my lessons right? for some reason I don't but this time I've been fine since this morning :)
why are guys such A-Hs? seriously...........this is NOT the first time this is happening ...... it happens every single time with every single guy! as soon as I start giving them attention they run away!!! I know it's a psychological thing and there is nothing I can do about it ....... but it's very stupid and sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm actually kinda looking forward to talking to him to tell you the truth (caz I'm crazy like that) ....... but this time I'm like a normal person......accepting the fact that he has no obligations whatsoever to give me attention...... he's NOT my boyfriend for god's sake!!!! I care about him A LOT ........ but to him I'm just a friend....... even when he wants to pretend to act like I'm more than a friend to him I should know that I'M NOT......... it's just a game that he's playing caz he's a guy! they want the whole world (or at least all the girls in the world) to fall in love with them..... it's just in their nature ........ specially for scorpios ........ whatever.........
I'm stronger than yesterday......... :)
thank you god for everything.......... for realizing that a bump in the road is nothing more than a bump and I can pass through it...... thanks for making me realize / remember how fortunate I am for everything that you've given me........ thank you for making/helping me appreciate it...... thank you thank you thank you.......... thanks a million! LOVE U