Wha??

I miss him... It's like the cindrella story... I'm day dreaming... I have a hard time remembering how difficult it has been for me to meet someone that I like! And I don't understand how I'm really considering letting him go? I guess these are the sude effects of loving myself too much... But... He's so nice... I think... It's been 3 months... Dont remember anymore

What? Not again!

I was fine for a week... But now I'm down again... I mean kind of.... I'm mostly sad bcz I dont even know what to do... There is no way in the world that I would want to be with him if he doesnt want me!

Just sad... That's all.... But as weird as this may sound I'm excited about the upcoming weeks and months....christmas persian party... My birthday.. And so much more!!! 😍

Love thyself..

I don't know about you but I pretty much am in LOVE with myself! I'm kind, smart and funny! I love spending time with myself and I think it's ok if guys don't like me... It's ok if he doesnt like me enough because I DO!

Thank you god ❤️

Are thr cycles over? What's happening?

Back in comfort zone I guess.... 3 days in a row :)

Update of him: i have lost my "desparate" sense of attachment... I dont know why but I think I've come to really truly beleive that I'm so lovable and growing as a person... And he also sent me a msg sharing his feelings... I feel like that was a "closure" for me...

Zogh zadeh!!!

Don't ask why but I'm in an extremely good mood today and so thankful!!!

Maybe it's bcz of the msg I got from him... Well probably but most importantly I looked at it with love... Without any anger... With a smile

I'm not gonna exhaust myself by thinking about 100 different things

I'm gonna just be in tge moment and be happy!!

All i can say is that...

I cant wAit for the next 3 weeks to be over!!!

Is it time to go home yet?? :(

Tired today!!!

The truth about love..

Love is not enough to make a relationship work AND there is no such a thing as soulmates

My heart still hurts

And I feel like I want to throw up

Not sure if its bcz of school/life/relationship

Im extremely thankful... But i guess it hurts... And i guess its the relationship

3 more weeks...

I have a feeling that the next three weeks are just going to fly by... I'm not really sure about what will happen after... My feelings about him are all over the place... And my heart literally hurts... And not sure about my life either.... So grateful about this experience though :)

What happened to ms strong I dont need anyone ? Lol

Well it's the end of the night.... And ive looked at couply pix... And a stupid pic on instagram saying cheesy stuff... Omggg i need to be strong and not send him the pic of the minion showing off "her" butt LOL

Sooo tempted

Does this mean I miss him? :(

I need my logic to step in plz... And thank you

Thank you god❤️

Feeling meh

Happy/excited

After 2 days of being in an ok mood my mood has changed to happy and excited

I love myself and I'm so proud of who I am and I don't need a man's validation to beleive that!

We have to embrace all our feelings

And by embrace I mean going to bed early and trying to forget

Fyi

Man haalam khoobeh ... Kheyli khoshhalam ... Diroozam boodam.... Bazi moghe ha az inke man cheghadr khoobo aaliam delam mirizeo zogh mikonam... Yeh eshghe khassi be khodam peida mikonam... Vaaghean ehsaas mikonam bi nazir hastam... Va nemikhaam ejaazeh befam hichki hichvaght beh khodesh ejaazeh bede ke baa man bad daftaae kone ya behem bad begeh... Che doos pesareh alaanan che har kase digeh...

Khodaayaa SHOKRET!❤️❤️❤️

Ps

Dont worry about me... Im fine... I just like to be dramatic sometimes... The moment passed... Although I feel like I'm dead... But this too shall pass :)

I don't know why but...

I'm so sad ... My heart hurts :(

I hate it so much when he doesnt reply.. For some reason I decided to check when he was online last and it was after I sent him my message

Yesterday was my high...

Today is my low

I was listening to this song and suddey i started crying bcz I think I found the perfect song for myself... I was thinking if I die this would be my "tafsir"

Yaade to dar khosoof tanhaa cheraagh bood
Shab bi darigh bood
Man talkho naa omid
To miresidio khorshid miresid...

Vaghti parandeh haa deltang mishodand
Deltang mishodi

Vaghti shokoofeh haa bi rang mishodand
Birang mishodi

Vaghti ke asheghi az eshgh misorood
Khorsand mishodi

Vaghti taraneh e az kooche migozasht
Labkhand mishodi...

Meh?

I'm feeling a lot better I guess

I wont really know until I get mu mt back!

But I'm fine... Its not all about school.... Its about life too

Mid cycle

Just wanted to say how grateful I am to be here! I think it's an amazing life experience... And about my relationship, I'm all over the place with that! Right now I'm indifferent... It's amazing what stress does to one..

:-|

:-| and loving it! Why do we try so hard to always be ok? It's ok not to be ok sometimes...

Baaz keh delam mikhaad nabaasham...

I'm so sad... Literally crying... Yes I can reason w myself to stop but let me get it out... Sometimes I think my whole being is a big lie... Who am I really? How did I get here?

It's so lonely here that I feel like I might as well just not be...

Tired of working on assignments that don't make sense whatsoever!!! Who ever knew that doimg something so meaningless could be so emotionally draining?what's the point of sitting in the library all day staring at questions that dont make one bit of semse and there are no resources I could find to help me or anyone to help me... I just want this week to be over... What a waste of tears... But felt nice....

Khodaayaa SHOKRET

Holding back tears...

I hate asking for help... I hate not being able to do something by myself... And I embrace it because I love being an independent woman!!!

But there are times like now when I just dont get the question and need help! But it's ok I'll figure something out... I just dont get the point of doing this and that's why I don't really want to do it...


❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️


I have decided to be kinder to myseld...

I won't give up

One min im happy the next min I want to throw my phone out the window!!! Well the truth is that I'm fine so dont worry im not losing it...

Going to the gym :)