Got the job!

Sorry for the late update........ as I had mentioned before, I seem more eager to share frustration than happiness.....

I'm so unbelievably thankful.....I can't wait to start fresh......

For now I'm going on vacation..... which means the stress of "what to wear"...... and for the first time I'm going to the beach...... so stressed out...... but excited about the new experience......... I'm not going to think about what other people think about my body/how I look.........

anyways....... that's all...... I'm really happy........ there's just so much that I need to do/want to do...... but that'll all have to wait until after the vacation

It's hard to succeed when you have no support......

Which reminds me that you can only rely on yourself and no one else........

We'll see how true that is in 3 days

I have absolutely no idea why I don't have a good feeling about this...... no matter how hard I try I'm in no way excited.......

I think I'm really REALLY exhausted, frustrated, and at the end of my rope that I can't even pretend any more......

As much as I REALLY REALLY want this I'm just not getting the feeling for it.......

Life was good when I was careless........

so freaking tired of going over my memories from when I was in the city of love (as I called it before moving there the first time) over and OVER again!!!

I don't like living in the past

I NEED TO GET OUT

3 more days until freedom....... but I have already gone crazy!!!!

I am just extremely tired and EXHAUSTED

did I mention how EXHAUSTED I am?

lol..... are you also tired of my complaints?

well....... all I can say is wish me luck :)

thank u

once again, I apologize to myself for making me go through this....

blame it on my family lol

:)

gngt!

pepper

In order to add a bit of spice to my life (pepper... get it? lol) I decided to go on a blind date with a guy that my mom gave my number to... in other words, my mom has a co-worker who has a son who is single and he asked for my number to give to him and he msgd me......

To make the story short we went for coffee (2 hours) and he was super nice and super good looking... and single! I know..... but I have no idea if he likes me or not....... I'll let you know if I hear from him....... as usual, I don't like the waiting game! I think he's great but something tells me that he may not like me....... although we had (I think) a great conversation!

gngt <3 p="">
Love and light